I don't know what happen to myself lately. I feel that my feeling is not right. But, sometimes I also realize why I become like this, doing such strange attitudes both to myself and some of my friends.
Then do you know what I did? I randomly do some research about my horoscope. I hope it can help me understand myself. And I found some of the answers of my questions are there. Here is the summary of my horoscope which is Scorpio.
"Scorpio is the eighth sign of the zodiac and represented by the scorpion. Scorpios are truly the contradicting sign. They can be the best and worst of both worlds - independent and clingy, loving and cold, authoritative and weak. Above all else, they are intense about almost everything.
Scorpios are fiercely independent. They are able to accomplish anything they put their mind to and they won't give up. They are perfectly suited to being on their own. They are not social butterflies like some other zodiac signs and some actually prefer to live on their own that way there is never any issue of who controls what at home, they like to be in control.
Relationships with Scorpio are always complicated, just like the person, their relationships are a series of extremes, they can even be downright moody for no apparent reason. Scorpios are known for their possessiveness and jealousy but on the other hand, they are extremely loyal. Scorpios have an excellent memory and combined with an inability to let things go, they can hold a grudge against someone who did them harm forever, in fact a Scorpio rarely if never forgives and forgets. They will even go as far as get vengeance on the person. On the other hand, they will always remember a kind gesture forever and repay it. Any kind selfless gesture done to a Scorpio will gain trust and respect which is extremely important to them in any relationship, either romantic or not. The best advice is to be honest with a Scorpio friend and in return, you will gain an amazing friend you will never forget and who will be loyal to you and never make false promises. Their truthful and shocking sense of humor if different than that of any other zodiac sign and the Scorpio makes an amazing, powerful interesting friend that can be trusted.
You are demanding of yourself and others, but when you give your heart to someone you’re very loyal. You are committed to anything you do, including relationships — you absolutely adore the idea of love. It’s a challenge that excites you."
Those are pretty much about Scorpio that suit myself, I guess. So, I think I won't be able to have a same relationship with some people who already had trouble with me before. Hmmm... I see. Interesting! Hahahahaha.... I know that attitude of mine is kind of weaknesses but I can't help it. By the way, there are more about Scorpio.
"Scorpios has brilliant minds. Scorpio has a native understanding of humans and often show psychic tendencies. They are often interested in the mind and its potential powers. You turn heads whenever you walk into a room — you are the strong, silent type, and you have a magnetic aura. You have something that’s hard to put your finger on but makes it nearly impossible for people to ignore you. You know full well that you can manipulate people, and you love it! This magnetic power is really your greatest strength." - I hope I can really be like this. In fact, I don't think I am this great. Maybe because I was born at 23rd October which is in the border between Scorpio and Libra. So it seems I am not a pure Scorpio, but I will try my best to be like this in my life.
"It’s well known astrologically that the eyes of a Scorpio can hypnotise. Whether you know it or not, this is your most powerful physical trait. Often people will often say that you have amazing eyes. So even though you don’t always articulate your feelings, your eyes do plenty of communicating for you — they can express the full range of your emotional states." - This is the best part of Scorpio and becomes the most regretted part for me. Why don't I feel any of this feeling about my eyes? I even feel that my eyes are so small and don't have any power at all. Even my mom said about it T-T
"You’re not afraid of obstacles or challenges, whether they are something unavoidable or foes or competitors. In fact, you thrive on them — you love trying to prove that no one can stop you." - I wish I can do this as well. One of my friends said to me last time that I am too scared of someone. OK! So I promise to myself that I won't be. I will do whatever I want and I won't be feeling guilty or afraid again because yes, I am not guilty. Hope I can do well this time.
