I am reading this novel called Antologi Rasa while I am waiting for church time at 6pm.
And, I keep thinking that I need to go to work at 7.30am tomorrow to make up time, which makes me sustain enough.
Suddenly I got a text message from my colleague saying that she will be away sick tomorrow.
What does that mean?
That means I need to go to work at 6am tomorrow to cover her shift.

What is the worst than you need to arrive at work at 6am on Monday morning?
As a normal human being, as a normal employee,
I feel like screaming and swearing, complaining this job of mine and hope that my last job interview went well so I can get a new better job.

But this novel, Antologi Rasa tells me that I still need to be grateful for everything that I have until now,
while a lot of people out there are suffering more.
A lot of shitty things happen to all characters in this novel, from complicated love feeling, work overtime for months and months, screw your own best friend and friendship, etc.
The main character, Keara likes photography a lot and uses this to run away from job, stress or anything depressing, uses photography as a magic to calm her down and to keep her sane.

I really like the part that Keara can always consider the work is to fill the time between weekends.
Hmmm... maybe I should to that too so I can enjoy and treat the life as free as her.

So? Now? I just need to calm myself down as well, being thankful for what I have now and just read this novel to distract my mind... ahhh, and go to church later.
I always find that I can always feel peaceful when I am in church.
And looking at what I am doing in this lazy Sunday...
Staying in 22nd floor of this good-categorized apartment, with a today's not-too-hot-not-too-cold perfect weather, having a cup of green tea, reading this entertaining, calming yet inspiring novel and realized that I've got what I want and what I've planned until now...

I am grateful...
I want more, I want better life...
But it's enough.... for me... for now.