Here I am..

In the middle of midnight... more than midnight actually.
Want to sleep but still have so many things in my mind :(
Starting from exam, moving room, studying, him, holiday, next semester, etc.

Going to face exam in 11 days.
Trying to understand the 'IP routing table, MRTG, ICMP, SNMP, DHCP, DNS, RMON, TCP, etc' and all of their bullshit. huahaha... Not bullshit actually, sometimes it is useful too... for people who like networking so much. And that will definitely not me !!!! fiuhhhh...
Even, still have 2 more subjects to study beside that.

Disturbed by body problem too..
U should know what a main problem that a girl/woman is about her body..!!
Yuppp.. weight problem!
Can't make my weight scale go down...
That ruins my plan to enjoy eating in next holiday. GREAT.


Missing him so much... but,
think I got something wrong inside my head.
I feel something different about him lately,
after he got back his internet connection few days ago...
And now, in this situation that I can't chat with him as much as before because I have to study,
feel that he doesn't have 'that' passion to chat with me, and yeah... we didn't chat as much as before.
He is not smiling as much as before too,
and... dunno, somehow I just feel something is not right.
Does he have a problem? Does something happen to his life?
Or is it just the effect because of those problems that disturbing me?
Hope that's true, hope it's only my bad feeling T-T

Hope that he can be here now,
accompany me studying,
hug me and says 'Nothing is wrong, everything is OK'.
But, I know.. that's only hope.


Trying to ignore all of those problems and the cold weather now...
Trying to leave it until exam is finished...
Trying to study seriously tomorrow and so on...
Trying to understand and remember those words printed in the lecture slides too...
And the most important now,
trying to sleep well tonight,
trying not to bother anything at the moment...