Hi again...
I am officially starting my first full-time job.

My first day was yesterday. Well, it's not too bad. I was introduced to all people in the company, especially the one in the IT field. The company is divided into different levels. The IT and support division which include helpdesk analyst, support analyst, developer, desktop support, technician and database support are in level 17. Level 18 is the main office which include receptionist, meeting room, account executives and many others who deal with the clients directly. As far as I know, there is one more office which is in level 22 and this is the human resources team. Quite good, huh?

So, basically yesterday, I went through all of them, introduced myself to other people, set up my account and password and had some training. Ohhh... btw, I am still on training until 7th October. The company is related to finance which I am not familiar with. Yesterday, when I read, learnt and tried to understand some papers related to the company and my job... there are some alien words written there, such as options, trades, future, trade analysis, depth, watchlists, warranty, etc etc. My God! I said to myself, "Okay.. I think I need to start studying finance ASAP!" That time, I was thinking of my friend who could teach me finance. hahahaha....

Today is much better. I start to understand some finance terms and it's actually not that bad. hehehe.... Besides, today, I am more familiar with the people and the environment and I realize that it's so good. I said this because yesterday I didn't have passion for it. I felt that this is not right for me, this is not what I want, I want more and I am not satisfied with it. After I thought about it last night, I know that of course I won't be satisfied easily with this role. My role is the basic basic role in IT field. hahahaha... So, I promise to myself I will work hard and be responsible so I can be promoted or at least get higher position. In fact, I know that I can't be what I want straight away without any IT experience. So, I know this is the best for me now.

The worst part was I got headache yesterday. I guessed it was because I didn't have proper breakfast and lunch so when the clock showed 4.00pm, I was dizzy and sleepy... VERY! Moreover, I did a lot of reading  and a mini test yesterday so my eyes and my brain were tired as well. When the clock showed 5.00, my manager said to me:

Manager: "How're you going? Tired? I know, it will be hard for the first time. There will be a lot of reading when you are on training. But, you will get used to it, right Van?" (Van is my colleague)
Van: "Yes, the first 3 weeks... HEADACHE! Hahahaha..."
Me: (Only in my thought) I got headache already now, no need to wait until 3 weeks. *sighh

Luckily, today is much better, interesting and easier. I also had some conversations with some colleagues this evening. One of the conversation:
M: "How old are you?"
Me: "I am turning 21 next month"
M: "Whattt?? You're so young."
Me: "Am I?"
M: "Yes! I wish I am still 21. Hey Cathy, Marcia is still 20 years old."
Me: "No, I'm turning 21 soon."
C: "Reallyy?! Wow! You're so young. I wish I am still 21 as well."
M and C: "Ahhh, you're a baby."
Me: ....

I think I am going to love my current job. Ciaoooo.... ^^
"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control."

lebay mode: ON

For the second time....
I say again...
Falling for your best friend is really really not a good idea.
At least for me.
I am done with it,
I am done with you,
I won't waste my time, my mind and my heart anymore....

*pic is from here
If there's one thing I learned in prison it's that money is not the prime commodity in our lives... time is. - Gordon Gekko.

You stop telling lie about me, I'll stop telling truth about you. - Gordon Gekko.

What's worth doing is worth doing for money. - Gordon Gekko.

Greed is good. Greed is right. Greed works, greed clarifies, cuts through and captures the essence of evolutionary spirit. - Gordon Gekko.
I feel blue.
I feel sad.
I feel empty.
I feel that something bad will happen.

My mood is upside down.
My heart is sick.
I can't even understand myself.
What should I do?

I am hurt.
Firstly, there are many things happening that I appreciate and thankful for. I got shocking happy news from best-friends. Unfortunately, I can't tell what the news is... but I am really happy for you, even it was really unpredictable and shocking. hahahaha.... I am happy if you are happy. Anw, that's the first thing... Another thing, I got a job. Yesterday evening, my recruiter called me and he said:

Him: "Hi Marcia, this is Michael. How're you going?"
Me: "Hi Michael. I'm good. How r u?"
Him: "Very well, thanks. Can you talk at the moment?"
Me: "Yes, sure."
Him: "Great. Are you sitting down?"
Me: *oh no, it must be bad news "Yes. Hahaha..."
Him: "Congratulations! You are accepted in bla bla bla bla..."
Me: "Ahhh.... *silent... Really? Wow... Thank you very much."

Okay, I know I should be excited because I got a job. hahahaha... In fact, when I heard of it, I felt empty. I felt there was no passion inside my body and my brain. WHY OH WHY? I don't know as well. Maybe it just hasn't come out yet. Maybe it just because I had't yet got the challenge so I feel nothing. I hope so.. so when I start the work I will be excited. 

However, I am so grateful and praise to God so many times. I know it's just a month, hmmm... ok two months from the day I graduated and I got a job already. I realize that the job is not really prestige and high-paid but I know this is the best for me now as I just graduated and I don't have any experience related to my field so I believe that this is a really good opportunity for me to start my career. When I told my mother this happy news, she's so happy and when I told my feeling, she can understand. She said, "You will get excited once you go to your first day work."

Yes, I am so lucky and I am really thankful for that. I will start my work next week and I promise that I will work well, truly and responsibly. I won't waste this golden opportunity and make my parents proud of me. Wish me luck!

*pic is from here
Well, lately... everything happens so fast especially this week. I sent one of my best friends to China yesterday. We had his graduation and farewell party last Friday with others as well and we had small gathering on Sunday. Yesterday was the time for him to go to China. I went to airport with other friends to send him and I felt that airport always gives sad and mellow feeling. Honestly, the first time I heard that he will go to China for 2 years was not really shocking. But, yesterday, when we sent him, I felt sad and I am sure that others felt the same. I have known him for 4 years and we go out often with others. I am sure that 4 years is long enough to feel loss, especially if he/she is your best friend. I really hate farewell. In fact, he is my first best friend that go back for good. Okay, not really for good.. just for 2 years.

I just hope that he will succeed in China and when he go back here in 2 years, he'll be back with pride :)
My wish and pray is always with you, mate! Good luck!
Few days ago, I lost my wallet in one of Indonesian restaurant in Melbourne. It guess it's just not my luck because that day, at the afternoon, I went to Chadstone VIP night to shop and I thought to buy a wallet but then I decided to not buy because my wallet was still pretty fine and in excellent condition. Then, at night, when I bought a meal in that restaurant, payed for it and sat, I forgot to take the spoon and fork. So, I put my wallet on the table and I was thinking 'should I put it to my bag first'. Unfortunately, I didn't! I thought that it won't be long, besides I put it in the middle of my friends. Teng teng teng.... When I went back after taking spoon and fork, my wallet was gone. First, I thought that my friend took it to bully me but then... they told the truth, they didn't take it. Damn! That time, I felt so sad, afraid and confused. How come? I left only 15 seconds or less and no one knew that my wallet was taken by someone.

Of course you know what I did after that... As others if they lose their wallet. Blocking the ATM and credit card. The worst part is I have to call my father in Indo because the only credit card I have is from him which is Indonesian credit card. And guess.... my parents are so angry with me! Fiuhhh.... The most hatred part is that I really like that wallet and I got my student ID card and my Indonesia driving license inside. Which means...
  1. I graduate already so I can't get another student ID card which actually can be used for many things such as student discount for movies ticket, free charge for bank account, etc. 
  2. I'm planning to apply for full driving license in November, now... it's just hope! Because I need my Indonesian driving license (min 3years already) to apply for it and you have to be 21 years old. That's why I can only apply for it after my 21st birthday, and not it's completely gone. grrrrrr.....
  3. I can't rent a car when my mother come here for my graduation, and I can't even drive here. WTH!
I really really want to curse the thief who took my wallet. But I won't... it doesn't bring me any advantage by swearing, in fact I put the sin on myself. I just pray that hopefully it can be back to me or if not, I just leave it to God. He is the one who will punish the thief. Besides, my friend said that it's not strange anymore. There are many people complain and lost their wallet in that restaurant. --"
CRAZY! I will definitely 100% won't go back and ear to that restaurant.

*pic is from here
Another video from Sam Tsui. Enjoy!

Well, yesterday I tried this recipe for Terang Bulan because I have basically nothing to do. I tried the recipe from here and it is quite fine. At first, it was not perfect but at last it was. I guess it's because the heat of the pan. By the way, I just use frying pan (teflon) because I don't have the special pan for martabak :)

500 gr self-raising flour
750 cc water
1 egg
50 gr sugar
1 table spoon salt
1 tea spoon baking soda

chocolate meises
granulated peanut
condensed milk
etc (can be modified)

1. Mix all the ingredients except baking soda.
2. Stir it by using the whisk, until the dough is mixed and flour is dissolved. Leave it for 1 hour or more.
3. Heat the pan.
4. Put the baking soda to the dough, stir it until it is mixed.
5. Pour the dough to the pan (not all, it depends on how big is your pan and how much is the dough). With this recipe, it can be up to 3 times using 24cm diameter pan.
6. Cook until the top of the dough dry and porous.
7. Strew the sugar, cover the pan.
8. When it's cooked, lift it and smear it with the margarine, fill with the topping.
*small cup

*big cup


525 gr flour (Segitiga Biru / self-raising flour)
345 gr margarine
165 gr water
3 gr salt
6 pcs eggs
450 gr caster sugar
10 gr baking powder

150 gr chocolate chip

1. Sifter the flour, put it into mixer bowl.
2. Heat the margarine, water and salt until it is boiled, and mix it with the flour. Stir with medium speed until the dough is warm.
3. Put the eggs in one by one to the dough, stir until it is mixed.
4. Mix the sugar and baking powder, then put it into the dough. Stir until it is mixed.
5. Put the chocolate chip into the dough by using whisk.
6. Pour the dough into the muffin place and bake in 200 degrees Celsius for 25 minutes.
This is my favorite song at the moment.
Song of the day, song of the week, song of the month ;p

Club Can't Handle Me - Florida Feat David

You know I know how 
To make em stop and stare as I zone out 
The club can't even handle me right now 
Watchin you watchin me I go all out 
The club can't even handle me right now 
The club can't even handle me right now 

I own the light and I don't need no help 
Gotta be the feeling that scarface felt 
Stuntin go wild can't handle this player 
Life of the club arrogant like yeah! 
Talk like money so the girls just melt 
One too many all on me like twelve 
Look like cash and they all just stare 
Bottles, models standin on chairs 
Ball out cause that's the business 
All out it's so ridic-lous 
Zone out so much attention 
Scream out I'm in the building (hey! ) 
They watchin I know this 
I'm rockin, I'm rolling 
I'm holding, I know it 
You know it 

You know I know how 
To make em stop and stare as I zone out 
The club can't even handle me right now 
Watchin you watchin me I go all out 
The club can't even handle me right now (yeah) 
The club can't even handle me right now (yeah) 

Still feelin myself I'm like outta control 
Can't stop now more shots lets go 
Ten more rounds can I get a Kato 
Paparazzi trying to make me pose 
Came to party till I can't no more 
Celebrate coz that's all I know 
Tip the groupies takin off their clothes 
Grand finale' like superbowl 
Go hard run the show 
That's right wild out got money to blow 
More lights more ice when I walk in the door 
No hype do it big all over the globe 

I said it 
Go tell it 
Who ready? 
I'm ready! 
You ready! 
Lets get it! 

You know I know how 
To make em stop and stare as I zone out 
The club can't even handle me right now 
Watchin you watchin me I go all out 
The club can't even handle me right now (yeah) 
(Put your hands up!) 
(Put your hands up!) 
(Put your hands up!) 
The club can't even handle me right now (yeah) 
(Put your hands up! ) 
(Put your hands up! ) 
(Put your hands up! ) 

You got me watchin now 
Got my attention now 
Got everybody in the club wanting to know now 
I am a ladies man 
Come be my lady and... 
We can both, zone, out 
Bring ya body and let me switch up the atmosphere 
Take you up out of this club and in my new lim 
Fly you all around the world 
What you want baby girl 
Are you ready to go now! 

You know I know how 
To make em stop and stare as I zone out 
The club can't even handle me right now 
Watchin you watchin me I go all out 
The club can't even handle me right now (yeah) 
(Put your hands up!) 
(Put your hands up!) 
(Put your hands up!) 
The club can't even handle me right now (yeah) 
(Put your hands up!) 
Lets celebrate now 
(Put your hands up!) 
You know who shut em down!
Feel like haven't been writing for a long time. Well, my life lately is quite boring. I basically just do nothing everyday. My interview went well, I guess. I am going to have another interview next week around Wednesday. This time, the interview will be with the head of manager. Hmmm.... Make me nervous. I guess I have to prepare for it because this is the last interview before the decision made and the interviewer last time said the head of manager is really a technical person so I better prepare my knowledge about SQL, HTML, .NET, etc because he may ask about it. Oh noooo!

The other thing happened was me and my friends had a small discussion last time in my house and they told me that I am too independent as a girl. Am I? Maybe! But, I thought it's good to be independent. My friends said it is good to be independent but try to reduce it now because it makes me looked so though and guys don't have a passion to protect or help me or even to look at me as a girl. Honestly, it is quite shocking for me. 

I asked about it to another friend ( a guy) and he said, "Independent? Yeah, I think so but inside you are still a girl. If they know you deeply, you are purely a girl. I mean mentally, physically.. of course you're a girl." That made me happy at first but then he said again, "Well, when I saw you at the first time, you're really mysterious and I want to know you more. But, after I know you and very close to you... that's it! Stop right there. I feel it's OK! This is enough, I know her already." It's like what my best friends said to me as well. They said that I can care and close to some people but just as friends or best friends. No more! Just friends! Arghhhhhh!!!! Why is it so hard to be a woman? hahahaha.... I think I have to do introspection and behave differently to be more girly, don't I?
I am not angry, but I am sad... terribly.
I am in my apartment, alone. My house-mate is having interview for part-time job now, wish her luck and my other house-mate... I guess she's going to univ. While I am alone at home, I am thinking that actually my life isn't that bad. I know I've been complaining lately because I have nothing to do everyday or I have no job but I got some job interviews while some people are so desperate because they don't even get an interview. I got a phone call from IT recruitment that I applied last week and he said that tomorrow I will have a phone interview at 10.30am from an IT company. The good thing is the manager for the position is Indonesian, I can tell from the name that is really Indonesian. Is that actually good or not? Maybe it will be easier for me because we are in the same nationality. Hahahaha... Now, I am a discrimination person ;p

Well, I should prepare for interview tomorrow. But, honestly, I am not really interested. Argh! Human! Never satisfied with what they've got. I said to myself that I know I applied for so many jobs and I really want to get the job from some of them. However, applying for jobs is so awry. When you applied for some jobs and then you will get an interview and let say you get the job, and you know the job is not really good (either in the role or in the salary) but you need to get a job as soon as possible to earn money too. And suddenly the day, the week or two weeks after you get a call from other companies which offer the best offers. How am I supposed to do then? My friend said that's okay as long as there is no contract for the first job, then you can quit anytime you want and get the best one. But, it is impossible if you work for one month and then you quit. Argghhh!!! Okay, let see how the interview tomorrow. Oh, one more thing, I should receive a decision by another company for the role I applied as well tomorrow, either I go to the next step or not. So, my luck is not that bad, isn't it? Hope everything will work fine and I can choose one of them, the best one.

*pic is taken from here
Hi again...
Lately, I have been busy with many things from job interview to personal things.

Yeah, I got some interviews, both part time and full time jobs. But, until now, I haven't 100% got a job. How sad! Well, I just think the positive side that my resume is not that bad. hehehe... I really hope that I can get a job soon. Doing nothing everyday is like a disaster. You don't know what you should do, you don't even have something to do. Arghhhh!

My interview itself went fine, I guess. Basically, I got two official interviews for full time jobs in IT field, but until now there hasn't been any decision. The other two are for part time jobs, it's in Starbucks and Gloria Jeans and... I haven't heard anything as well about the results. Grrrrr! I really hate uncertainty. Other activities? I went to watch Ghost Writer yesterday, gave birthday surprise to my house-mate, went to have dim sum this morning, and the rest was just spent my time with my friends. What a life, huh?! OK! I'll stop complaining. I will be patient waiting for any decision from them. By the way, I got something from my friend, Maria. It's not a thing, it's a quote... but I'm not sure where did she heard it from. However, I really like the quote because it does really make sense.

"Success is like being pregnant. Everybody congratulates you, but nobody knows how many times you've been fucked."
Just another amazing Youtube idol and incredible arrangements :)

Audrey and Gamaliel Tapiheru are Indonesian youtube singer. They usually sing the hits song and upload it into Youtube with the arrangement by themselves. Lately, they were asked to sing some Indonesian national songs for Indonesia independence day on television. Some of the songs are Bengawan Solo, Pantang Mundur and Indonesia Pusaka. I love the songs, I like the way they sing and I adore their voices. Moreover, I am proud that Bengawan Solo was included because Solo is my hometown. hahahaha.... Here are the videos of their performance. Enjoy and look how amazing they are!