Well well well...
Today is the last day of this year.
Excited? Yeah.. so so...

Honestly, I don't know where to go with my parents and my sister tonight.
I am still confused deciding which restaurant I should bring them to eat for dinner. LOL!
Most of the good restaurants are closed due to Christmas and New Year events itself.
Moreover, my father wants to eat Chinese Food... that makes everything harder --"

Anyway, usually people will have their new year resolutions.
I am thinking of mine and here it is:
  1. Work harder to get some promotion and more salary. LOL!
  2. Pass my IELTS test (this is really really urgent and to be honest, annoying but can't avoid it. I will try to love it so I will pass it. hahahaha...)
  3. I really want to do this since long time ago: Going abroad with friends using our own salary, either for real holiday or just for long weekend. (I know it's a little bit crazy to go abroad on the weekend, like we get 100.000k/year salary but in fact we don't ;p). The place? I really want to go to Thailand, esp. Bangkok and Phuket. Well, I want Europe and America as well but those can wait after I really earn more than 100.000k/year. Argh, life is so hard!
  4. Have a boyfriend? I just realize that in the last few years, I always have this resolution and I did fulfill it. However, it will never last until the next new year so I will put it as my new year resolution again. What a shame!
  5. Ah, almost forgot! Diet! This is kind of bullshit because I always put it as my resolution as well every year. But, what can I say? To do diet here is so hard. Last time I lost almost 4 kilos already but now it comes back :( 
  6. What else? Hmmm.... just want to be a better person ^.^
Hope I will be able to complete all of them by next year.

Anyway, Happy New Year to all of you... and Good Luck for 2011 !! ( ;

This post is dedicated for my beloved Mom.
Today is Mother's day in Indonesia so I just want to share something.

M - O - T - H - E - R
"M" is for the million things she gave me,
"O" means only that she's growing old,
"H" is for her heart of purest gold,
"E" is for her eyes, with love-light shining,
"R" means right, and right she'll always be,
Put them all together, they spell
A word that means a world to me.
by: Howard Johnson (c. 1915)

You deserve much more than words can say;
You make me feel I always will pray,

“God, please, be with Mom in a special way.
Give her Your blessings throughout the day.
Show her the meaning, the reason for her to stay.
Let Your angels guard her; don’t let her go astray.
Help her see the good of Your work; keep the evil away.
Keep her smiling; dry her tears, if You may.
Let her that whenever there’s trouble,
She can turn to You; You’ll help her struggle.
Let her know that here on Earth,
She’ll never know what she’s really worth,
But up there, up there in Heaven,
She’s guarded by an angel, no, make that seven:

Three on her right to help her hold on tight,
Three on her left to help her have hope in the stars so bright,
And one in front of her to help her see the light, Your light…

Please, let her know how precious she is
In our hearts even if we’re not showing this.
Let her know we’re always there
To help her out through our prayer.
We may not feel what she’s passing through,
But let her know we try our best to do.
Let her know that whenever she’s down,
We can feel it without a frown.
Help us se Your goodness through her,
Through Your words wherever we were…”

That’s my prayer for you every night.
May this give you hope in everything in sight.
And please, know that wherever you are,
Know that we love you and care whether we’re near or far…

*taken from here
Remember the Oroton wallet that I really want before?
I got it, as a present from my best friend.
She said it's for graduation, birthday and celebration gift as I lost my wallet too.
Arghhh... I am so happy. Have it for a while already but still so happy ^^
Thanks a lot, dear. Muach2...

Nothing much happen though recently.
Still go to work everyday but not too busy compared to few weeks ago.
Well, it's good for us so we have chance to talk and laugh more in the office.
Had Xmas Party with colleagues as well last time and birthday party tomorrow, but I don't think I will go cos most of my colleagues are not going :(

Many of my friends went back to Indo already for holiday.
Melbourne is so quiet for me now T-T
Anyway, some of my friends got job lately, think it was early Christmas present from Santa (:

My parents and my sister are coming to Melbourne soon for Christmas and New Year holiday.
Hmmm.... might not meet my friends for around 10 days, but we'll see.
I should enjoy my freedom first before all of those thingy schedules comes. hahahaha....

I guess it's a long update.
God, please please...
I only have one wish for Christmas.
Please, hear my pray.
Please guide me, bless me so I can give my best for it.

Well, maybe I imagine too far.
Maybe I dream too much.
Maybe I read too many novels.
Maybe I watch too many movies.
Maybe I am living in a fairytale world.

But, sometimes... I want to experience some random things that can be happened in this real world.
Random things that start something as well as random things that are started from something.
Like what??
Random things, like a gift can sometimes be a start point of your career-life.
Like someone that you meet in lift can become your partner in life.
Like camera, music, movies can really mean something for your life.
Like meeting a person who can greatly affect your life.
Can those things really happen in life?
Not only by imagining in my dream world.
Not only by seeing it in the movies.
Not only in my thought after I read novels.

Maybe I am referring to coincidence not randomness.
I want to feel it.
To feel the challenge.
To feel the happiness of it.
To feel the joy.
To feel the beat of your heart because of it.
To feel the excitement.

I think my imagination is obsessing and controlling me too much. hahahaha...
Agnes Monica, she is one of talented artists and singers from Indonesia.
I am really proud of her and I idolized her.
I am not a big fans of Indonesian artist or singer but I can say that she is amazing, awesome and pretty.
She starts to go to international and recently she was asked to be one of the co-host in American Music Awards.

Can't say more about her. Finally, congratulations for your hard work! :)
The video below is her collaboration with Christian Chavez in AMA 2010.

1. You eat, you're fat. You don't eat, you're a freak!
2. You read, you're a nerd. You don't read, you're stupid!
3. You tell a secret, you're an attention seeker. You don't tell a secret, you're still an attention seeker.
4. You smoke, you think you're cool. You don't smoke, you're a loser!
5. You let someone in, you're easy. You don't let someone in, you're to up tight.
6. You've had sex, you're a slut. You haven't had sex, you a frigid little b**ch.
7. You wear make up, you're a slag. You don't wear make up, you're ugly!

The lesson is: You can't please everyone.
Oh my gosh!
Boo is so cute. Can't stop looking at his picture!

Love love love <3
I want too. Okay, I am being so pathetic now. hahaha...


*pic is taken from here

Arghhh! Mommy, I want dogs! Buy me one like this please T-T
Few days ago, I thought of my life.
What should I do to survive here in Melbourne?
What should I do if I want to live in here forever?
What should I do if I want to make changes in my life?
What should I do if I want to earn much money for a living?
What should I do if I want to bring my parents here later on?
What should I do to make my life more challenging?
What should I do to have passion in what I do?
What should I do to get people aware of my existence in business life?
What should I do to be successful?

Until now, I haven't got any answer for my questions.
Not even for one of them.
I am stuck!
Nothing much happened lately.
Just common activities, go to work, go home, eat, shower, sleep.
It's kinda boring.

Even I go out with my friends sometimes on weekdays, it feels different.
I keep looking at the clock, make sure that the clock doesn't show the time for going home already.
I kinda miss my univ-life.
Well, I guess everyone who works already will do miss the univ-life.
When we are still in Univ, we want to graduate quickly and get a job.
When we got a job and work, we want to go back to univ-life.

Anw, I think I am going to have a small reunion with my univ-friends.
We contact each other and I am pretty sure we will arrange a time for gathering.
HAVE TO! I have no life. hahahaha....

Fortunately, these days is an amazing week for me.
After the mellow mellow feeling and had no appetite, it has been gone now.
My appetite comes back and my feeling is... fine enough, for now ;p
Not to mention, I got my friends back after exam took them away and we went out often and also the nice weather. Not too cold, not too hot. Perfect! Plus, without mentioning the job that we have to do, I am getting a pleasant atmosphere and having fun colleagues in the office.

Don't want to think too much.
Don't want to care too much.
Just enjoy the life!
I went to karaoke this evening and I am falling in love with this song.... (:

It's sad when people you know
become people you knew.
When you can walk right past someone
like they were never a big part of your life.
How you used to be able to talk for hours.
And how now, you can barely even look at them. 
In [three] words i could sum up
Everything I learned about life:
it goes on.
Everything I learned about love:
it doesn't last. And...
Everything I learned about people:
they change fast.

People say damn those girls are never apart.
We say no shit bitch, we share the same  h e a r t .
She's just a silly girl
who keeps her hopes too high
and her jeans too low,
who lives by quotes and
can`t ever seem to say the right thing..
at the right time.
She's just another pretty girl
looking for herself in a big world,
who just wants someone to love her
and then everything would be alright.

Here's to the girls and silly cries.
Here's to the boys and telling lies.
Sneaking out and getting caught.
All the things that we've been taught.
Laughing, parties, crazy nights.
Searching for our Mr. right's.
Holding it down to the very end;
Sisters by heart and forever friends.
When u tell ur friend that u think u r ugly,
they`ll tell you that you are gorgeous.
But, when u tell ur best friend that u r ugly,
they`ll tell you to shut up 
and go put on some more make-up. =)

I want a guy that doesnt care about what I wear
or how I do my hair,
who loves my smile and my dorky laugh
and how I get hyper when I'm tired,
who would never want to see me cry
-- at least not tears of sadness.
And who would do those small things
that make my day just because he knows,
it would make me happy.
if you want me, then fight for me.
Because i`m fighting like hell for you.
Being a [ strong person ] means
knowing that in the end,
everything is going to be okay.
That`s the trick,
you can't care too much.

It's good to have guys like you,
but always keep them at a distance.
Never give them a chance to hurt you.
Love them, kiss them, flirt with them,
keep them on a string.
But never, ever, fall for one.
You don`t just "fall in love."
There's a lot more to it.
First you get distracted.
Second, you begin to stumble.
Third, you try to catch balance..
and then you fall and hit the ground
And finally,
u realize there's no-one there to help u up
So you wipe it off, fake a grin and stand.

Your life is a Flashback...
A question, a photograph, a statement, a story,
a struggle, a chance to laugh.
Because if you don't laugh, you cry.
A last crescendo when you die.
So hit the rewind button and listen,
it's the playback, the soundtrack to your life

Okay, honestly...
I have no idea what you just said,
but you looked so cute saying it.
My life has gone in 3 directions:
up side down.
I got hay fever.
Well, I am not sure as well actually because I never get it since I've been here for 4 years.
But, few days ago, started from Saturday actually, I got itchy throat so sudden.... the worst one.
And it became worst on Sunday. I got itchy throat, blocked nose and my eyes feel so tired.
My housemate, Maria told me to get hay fever medicine because they got it as well.
I knew that they got flu but I don't know if it is hay fever.
I didn't really care before about hay fever as I never experience it.

But, I bought the medicine too... at last because Maria said that our body can't produce the immunity to hay fever by itself so we have to take medicine. So, basically hay fever is an allergic to pollen and it is usually spreading on Spring.
The stupidest thing is that remember I got flower from my graduation ceremony? I did keep that flower in my house without considering the effect of it. hahahaha....

No one is aware of that until Maria and his boyfriend, Erick got flu for 1 week and it didn't get better at all.
That's how we get hay fever. Luckily, everyone is getting better now after taking the medicine.
The only problem is my voice is really bad, I think... while my friends said it's funny and cute --"
The worst part is people said, once you get hay fever, you have to take the medicine every year even if you are not actually sick. Hhhhhh!

*funny pic: hay fever hat

pic is taken from here
I know....
I think about it too
I know the situation
I know what happened
I know the consequences
I know what to do

But, somehow... it just hurts
I don't know why
And I just want to cry
I know it's not worthed
Just for today
Let me cry...
Hmmmm.... Sexy move, great dance, excellent body, pretty face. Perfecto!

Do you want to see what my friends did in my birthday?
I didn't even see my face before, I just saw my picture this morning because they uploaded to Facebook.

And I just realized that my birthday, every year, my face is not right. hahaha...
My face is always scary or ugly or what ever but clean.
Thank you for that, friends... ;p

I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best. 
- Marilyn Monroe -
We never went to photo booth before in almost our 4 years life in Melbourne and last week we decided to go for it. And... it was so fun! hahahaha.... I think we are growing younger mentally, not older. LOL!

Quite cute, huh? :p

Okay, I don't where and how to start.
What I am feeling lately, I am actually enjoying the days.
I had graduation ceremony and my birthday, as well as job to do so it keeps me busy,
but still I can't get rid of it.

It's about him.
The most unpredictable guy I've ever met... really...
So random, strange, harsh but can be so kind, friendly and sweet too.
The fact that he is smart and manly makes him more attractive.
What the hell, right?
I am just be able to figure it out lately because I've been watching and caring for him lately,
and it's just because of some of my friends praise him so I am curious whether it's right or not.
Maybe I shouldn't do that because it's just... I don't know, something is not right.
We shouldn't be like this, nope... I should't be like this.
I shouldn't have this feeling,
I shouldn't start seeing him from different view,
I shouldn't observe him,
I shouldn't care for him... ever,
I should stay still on the way I used to be and everything should be the same like before.
But, it's not. Everything is changed I guess....

Because now, I have jealousy...
For him... yeah for him...
Sometimes, I entertain myself by telling that they are texting each other every day every time except when they sleep, because he feels comfortable with her and he likes to speak and do something with her because she likes things that are challenging so they can do some crazy things together. Also, because of my best friend who is also his best friend said to me that he's an unusual person. He won't fall for a girl that he's already comfortable with, he's not that type of person. If he's been talking with a girl for a long time, for everything, he won't be in a relationship with her. So, it makes me calm... sometimes but I am close to him as well so I am talking to him too, so?? Hehhh??

The worst part is one of my guy friends which is my 'that (referring to my best friend above)' best friend's boyfriend (read slowly if you get confused) said to me "If you do like or love someone, then you will at least put effort on her/him. You won't just leave her/him, you are willing to stay close to her/him. You won't be just satisfied by talking to her/him once, you want to stay in touch."

Ohhhh.... nooo! That words, that time, from his mouth went through my ears, absorbed to my head, transfered to my brain, get analyzed and gave me a great shock. Of course I was because it means that I really entertain myself for giving me a fake hope. STUPID!

I have no idea what I should do now.
I have no idea how he looks at me now.
It's not that he avoids me or stays back from me,
even sometimes he flirts with me, but I know it means nothing for him.
He often done that since I knew him.
How am I be able to stay away from him then?
Practically, I am close to him and we're in the same circle of friends so we meet often.

See? I should never see or interested in him.... at all!
Especially that he used to be my best mate.
Last Friday, I had a birthday party of a friend. While I waited for them to come, I went to Borders and read some random magazines. In one of them, I read the horoscope part and looked for my horoscope, which is Scorpio. And.... because this month, October is actually Scorpio's month, the magazine revealed more about Scorpio rather than other zodiacs. The horoscope said:

Honest, sensitive and genuine, you can always be counted on in times of trouble and encourage friends to be themselves.
Dislikes insincerity, being told what to do, butt kissers, girlie romcoms and bullies.
Goth glamor. You rock frocks from floor length to polka-dot - gloves, sleek hair and red lips and nails.

The question is.... AM I ?!

Then... today, just now, I randomly opened a horoscope application in Facebook for this week. It said (Sorry, it is in Indo):

Pada umumnya kamu panjang akal, pendiam, pendendam, gigih, tekun. Anda sedang tertarik dengan seseorang, tapi jangan mengejarnya. Biarkan dia yang berusaha untuk mendekati anda. Di sisi pekerjaan, anda sedang menikmati kerja keras itu. Meski anda dicap pemalas, buktikan pada atasan anda adalah pekerja keras.

My comment: Not bad, but WHAAATTTT? My colleagues consider me as a lazy person? How come?? Hmmm... Maybe I should work harder starting tomorrow. And, the interesting part is 'Anda sedang tertarik dengan seseorang, tapi jangan mengejarnya. Biarkan dia yang berusaha untuk mendekati anda' -> English: You are currently attracted to someone, but don't go for him, let him chase you instead.
SO TRUE!! hahahaha... And before I read this, I was about to text him to ask where he is. What a coincidence! ;p

Let's wait and see then... Just wish, pray and hope!
Ah.. I can't help to not to post these graduation photos. Love love love it so much... hehehehe....
I am pretty sure that it was one of the best day in my life, gave me so much memories that I will always remember for the rest of my life.

Surrounded by lovely families and friends.
Occurred at the time I do not need to concern about other things.
Felt so free and happy (:

I think I just ruined everything
I don't know what I did
In fact, I don't know why I did that
Stupid me!
Now, only regret left
I guess, everything won't be the same now.

*pic from here
Yeayyy.... I am back on blogger.
I had my graduation ceremony. Finally... I have been waiting for this. hehehehe....
It was fun and tiring because I was working in the next day and the ceremony just started at 8pm - 10pm. You can guess that after the ceremony, me, my family and one of my friends went for dinner. hahaha.... So late!

My parents were here for 6days therefore I don't have any time to blog. I went to some places on weekend and still work on weekdays. Besides, now I don't really have time to blog in work place. Now, I know my colleagues' feeling. Why are they so stressed and depressed. But, so far... it's fine. I still can handle it, in fact sometimes we receive really interesting and funny call from some clients :)

Not much update though.... Just see the pics below ;p

It was really really one of the best days in my life.
Big thanks to my parents and all of my friends that came for me and for the presents as well. So happy! >.<

Melbourne's weather was so nice last weekend. Of course me and my friends didn't waste it away. We basically just hang around city enjoying the sun. Ate a lot, took many pictures, smiled a lot and prayed a lot.

Well, here are some pictures of us :)

This is why I love Melbourne so much ^^
The reason I created these looks is I saw a woman few days ago when I was on the way back home. Her appearance is so appealing and I couldn't help to not to look at her from up to down and down to up. Huh...
She wore a set of black pants and blazer, as well as the high heels (min 7cm). She brought black Prada bag in her shoulder and was busy with her phone that time. Ah, almost forgot! The most attractive side was her hair, ponytail. Sexy ponytail! My God! I am such a stalker. hahaha....

So, I created these looks. I used polyvore and looklet. hehehehe... I promise myself, one day, soon... I will be able to dress like her. I will be able to wear elegant offices clothes. I will be able to shop for it. I will be able to fund myself, completely and perfectly including my shopping needs. LOL!

Of course it won't be just the looks. I will be what I want. I will achieve my goals. I will get the position I dream of. I have to be perfectly capable in dealing with clients. I will be in the meeting with a lot of ideas in my head, doing presentation with members and clients. One day, I will be worthy to wear those suits :)

Hahahahahaha.... This picture is quite funny! Is it real or not? Well, I don't care. I just want to post it ;p

Here I am doing nothing again in the office. Tomorrow is my last day for training. Once I start dealing with client, I guess I won't be able to blog in the office again ;p

Well, I can say that today is really a boring day. There is only few things for me to do. I just went through a short-time training about html and webIRESS, some of the company's products. Moreover, I just went through a mini test about it and I went to database training which is kind of useless because the trainer told me the same information as before.Now, I finished my test already, even though I don't know whether the answers are correct or not. My manager just told me that she can't go through the answers today because she's so busy and one of my colleagues is not coming to work. So, she asked me to play around with the products by myself which means I will do facebook-ing, twitter-ing, blogging until I bored. hahahahaha... It's not because I don't want to play around with the products, it is just too bored. I think everything will start after I deal with the client directly. At the moment, I just learn, learn and learn theories. You can imagine how bored it is!

Sometimes, I feel guilty as well if I do many useless things because I look at my colleagues, they are all so busy and stressed. I predict that I will be one of them within 1 or 2 weeks. By the way, there were some funny things happened this afternoon. One of my colleagues, Cathy went to lunch break and when she came back, she showed us that she bought 2 pairs of earring. She said, "I am so stress. I need to go shopping to relax myself a bit." Hahahahaha... Well, I almost answer her, even though I am not stress I will always go shopping. Too bad!

Another funny thing happened is one of my colleagues, Marie received a call from a client. The client asked about something and Marie asked for his name. I guess he was going to spell his name and he said, "It's A for You, ... and *silent." Marie couldn't help to not to laugh and then she said, "Was it Y for You?" and the client said yes. After she hung up the phone, she told us what happened and she said, "I clearly heard and remembered that he said A for You not Y for You. Hahahaha... " Stupid but funny!

*pic is from here
I am in the office right now, doing nothing.
It's still my lunch break time but I finished eating already and I can't help to blog. hahahaha...

Lately, last weekend, some things happened. Well, they were not all good, but it wasn't really bad as well. Personally, whatever happens, whether good or bad, I will always love October. hehehehe.... Especially this year, I'm going to have my graduation ceremony soon. October is also my month because it's my birthday month. Moreover, I'm officially having my full-time job. This makes me loving October more. I don't know why too, but I always get excited if October comes. hmmmm....

This year, this month, I believe that something good will happen. I hope and I wish all of my wishes come true.
Hi again...
I am officially starting my first full-time job.

My first day was yesterday. Well, it's not too bad. I was introduced to all people in the company, especially the one in the IT field. The company is divided into different levels. The IT and support division which include helpdesk analyst, support analyst, developer, desktop support, technician and database support are in level 17. Level 18 is the main office which include receptionist, meeting room, account executives and many others who deal with the clients directly. As far as I know, there is one more office which is in level 22 and this is the human resources team. Quite good, huh?

So, basically yesterday, I went through all of them, introduced myself to other people, set up my account and password and had some training. Ohhh... btw, I am still on training until 7th October. The company is related to finance which I am not familiar with. Yesterday, when I read, learnt and tried to understand some papers related to the company and my job... there are some alien words written there, such as options, trades, future, trade analysis, depth, watchlists, warranty, etc etc. My God! I said to myself, "Okay.. I think I need to start studying finance ASAP!" That time, I was thinking of my friend who could teach me finance. hahahaha....

Today is much better. I start to understand some finance terms and it's actually not that bad. hehehe.... Besides, today, I am more familiar with the people and the environment and I realize that it's so good. I said this because yesterday I didn't have passion for it. I felt that this is not right for me, this is not what I want, I want more and I am not satisfied with it. After I thought about it last night, I know that of course I won't be satisfied easily with this role. My role is the basic basic role in IT field. hahahaha... So, I promise to myself I will work hard and be responsible so I can be promoted or at least get higher position. In fact, I know that I can't be what I want straight away without any IT experience. So, I know this is the best for me now.

The worst part was I got headache yesterday. I guessed it was because I didn't have proper breakfast and lunch so when the clock showed 4.00pm, I was dizzy and sleepy... VERY! Moreover, I did a lot of reading  and a mini test yesterday so my eyes and my brain were tired as well. When the clock showed 5.00, my manager said to me:

Manager: "How're you going? Tired? I know, it will be hard for the first time. There will be a lot of reading when you are on training. But, you will get used to it, right Van?" (Van is my colleague)
Van: "Yes, the first 3 weeks... HEADACHE! Hahahaha..."
Me: (Only in my thought) I got headache already now, no need to wait until 3 weeks. *sighh

Luckily, today is much better, interesting and easier. I also had some conversations with some colleagues this evening. One of the conversation:
M: "How old are you?"
Me: "I am turning 21 next month"
M: "Whattt?? You're so young."
Me: "Am I?"
M: "Yes! I wish I am still 21. Hey Cathy, Marcia is still 20 years old."
Me: "No, I'm turning 21 soon."
C: "Reallyy?! Wow! You're so young. I wish I am still 21 as well."
M and C: "Ahhh, you're a baby."
Me: ....

I think I am going to love my current job. Ciaoooo.... ^^
"Meeting you was fate, becoming your friend was a choice, but falling in love with you was beyond my control."

lebay mode: ON

For the second time....
I say again...
Falling for your best friend is really really not a good idea.
At least for me.
I am done with it,
I am done with you,
I won't waste my time, my mind and my heart anymore....

*pic is from here
If there's one thing I learned in prison it's that money is not the prime commodity in our lives... time is. - Gordon Gekko.

You stop telling lie about me, I'll stop telling truth about you. - Gordon Gekko.

What's worth doing is worth doing for money. - Gordon Gekko.

Greed is good. Greed is right. Greed works, greed clarifies, cuts through and captures the essence of evolutionary spirit. - Gordon Gekko.
I feel blue.
I feel sad.
I feel empty.
I feel that something bad will happen.

My mood is upside down.
My heart is sick.
I can't even understand myself.
What should I do?

I am hurt.
Firstly, there are many things happening that I appreciate and thankful for. I got shocking happy news from best-friends. Unfortunately, I can't tell what the news is... but I am really happy for you, even it was really unpredictable and shocking. hahahaha.... I am happy if you are happy. Anw, that's the first thing... Another thing, I got a job. Yesterday evening, my recruiter called me and he said:

Him: "Hi Marcia, this is Michael. How're you going?"
Me: "Hi Michael. I'm good. How r u?"
Him: "Very well, thanks. Can you talk at the moment?"
Me: "Yes, sure."
Him: "Great. Are you sitting down?"
Me: *oh no, it must be bad news "Yes. Hahaha..."
Him: "Congratulations! You are accepted in bla bla bla bla..."
Me: "Ahhh.... *silent... Really? Wow... Thank you very much."

Okay, I know I should be excited because I got a job. hahahaha... In fact, when I heard of it, I felt empty. I felt there was no passion inside my body and my brain. WHY OH WHY? I don't know as well. Maybe it just hasn't come out yet. Maybe it just because I had't yet got the challenge so I feel nothing. I hope so.. so when I start the work I will be excited. 

However, I am so grateful and praise to God so many times. I know it's just a month, hmmm... ok two months from the day I graduated and I got a job already. I realize that the job is not really prestige and high-paid but I know this is the best for me now as I just graduated and I don't have any experience related to my field so I believe that this is a really good opportunity for me to start my career. When I told my mother this happy news, she's so happy and when I told my feeling, she can understand. She said, "You will get excited once you go to your first day work."

Yes, I am so lucky and I am really thankful for that. I will start my work next week and I promise that I will work well, truly and responsibly. I won't waste this golden opportunity and make my parents proud of me. Wish me luck!

*pic is from here
Well, lately... everything happens so fast especially this week. I sent one of my best friends to China yesterday. We had his graduation and farewell party last Friday with others as well and we had small gathering on Sunday. Yesterday was the time for him to go to China. I went to airport with other friends to send him and I felt that airport always gives sad and mellow feeling. Honestly, the first time I heard that he will go to China for 2 years was not really shocking. But, yesterday, when we sent him, I felt sad and I am sure that others felt the same. I have known him for 4 years and we go out often with others. I am sure that 4 years is long enough to feel loss, especially if he/she is your best friend. I really hate farewell. In fact, he is my first best friend that go back for good. Okay, not really for good.. just for 2 years.

I just hope that he will succeed in China and when he go back here in 2 years, he'll be back with pride :)
My wish and pray is always with you, mate! Good luck!
Few days ago, I lost my wallet in one of Indonesian restaurant in Melbourne. It guess it's just not my luck because that day, at the afternoon, I went to Chadstone VIP night to shop and I thought to buy a wallet but then I decided to not buy because my wallet was still pretty fine and in excellent condition. Then, at night, when I bought a meal in that restaurant, payed for it and sat, I forgot to take the spoon and fork. So, I put my wallet on the table and I was thinking 'should I put it to my bag first'. Unfortunately, I didn't! I thought that it won't be long, besides I put it in the middle of my friends. Teng teng teng.... When I went back after taking spoon and fork, my wallet was gone. First, I thought that my friend took it to bully me but then... they told the truth, they didn't take it. Damn! That time, I felt so sad, afraid and confused. How come? I left only 15 seconds or less and no one knew that my wallet was taken by someone.

Of course you know what I did after that... As others if they lose their wallet. Blocking the ATM and credit card. The worst part is I have to call my father in Indo because the only credit card I have is from him which is Indonesian credit card. And guess.... my parents are so angry with me! Fiuhhh.... The most hatred part is that I really like that wallet and I got my student ID card and my Indonesia driving license inside. Which means...
  1. I graduate already so I can't get another student ID card which actually can be used for many things such as student discount for movies ticket, free charge for bank account, etc. 
  2. I'm planning to apply for full driving license in November, now... it's just hope! Because I need my Indonesian driving license (min 3years already) to apply for it and you have to be 21 years old. That's why I can only apply for it after my 21st birthday, and not it's completely gone. grrrrrr.....
  3. I can't rent a car when my mother come here for my graduation, and I can't even drive here. WTH!
I really really want to curse the thief who took my wallet. But I won't... it doesn't bring me any advantage by swearing, in fact I put the sin on myself. I just pray that hopefully it can be back to me or if not, I just leave it to God. He is the one who will punish the thief. Besides, my friend said that it's not strange anymore. There are many people complain and lost their wallet in that restaurant. --"
CRAZY! I will definitely 100% won't go back and ear to that restaurant.

*pic is from here
Another video from Sam Tsui. Enjoy!

Well, yesterday I tried this recipe for Terang Bulan because I have basically nothing to do. I tried the recipe from here and it is quite fine. At first, it was not perfect but at last it was. I guess it's because the heat of the pan. By the way, I just use frying pan (teflon) because I don't have the special pan for martabak :)

500 gr self-raising flour
750 cc water
1 egg
50 gr sugar
1 table spoon salt
1 tea spoon baking soda

chocolate meises
granulated peanut
condensed milk
etc (can be modified)

1. Mix all the ingredients except baking soda.
2. Stir it by using the whisk, until the dough is mixed and flour is dissolved. Leave it for 1 hour or more.
3. Heat the pan.
4. Put the baking soda to the dough, stir it until it is mixed.
5. Pour the dough to the pan (not all, it depends on how big is your pan and how much is the dough). With this recipe, it can be up to 3 times using 24cm diameter pan.
6. Cook until the top of the dough dry and porous.
7. Strew the sugar, cover the pan.
8. When it's cooked, lift it and smear it with the margarine, fill with the topping.
*small cup

*big cup


525 gr flour (Segitiga Biru / self-raising flour)
345 gr margarine
165 gr water
3 gr salt
6 pcs eggs
450 gr caster sugar
10 gr baking powder

150 gr chocolate chip

1. Sifter the flour, put it into mixer bowl.
2. Heat the margarine, water and salt until it is boiled, and mix it with the flour. Stir with medium speed until the dough is warm.
3. Put the eggs in one by one to the dough, stir until it is mixed.
4. Mix the sugar and baking powder, then put it into the dough. Stir until it is mixed.
5. Put the chocolate chip into the dough by using whisk.
6. Pour the dough into the muffin place and bake in 200 degrees Celsius for 25 minutes.
This is my favorite song at the moment.
Song of the day, song of the week, song of the month ;p

Club Can't Handle Me - Florida Feat David

You know I know how 
To make em stop and stare as I zone out 
The club can't even handle me right now 
Watchin you watchin me I go all out 
The club can't even handle me right now 
The club can't even handle me right now 

I own the light and I don't need no help 
Gotta be the feeling that scarface felt 
Stuntin go wild can't handle this player 
Life of the club arrogant like yeah! 
Talk like money so the girls just melt 
One too many all on me like twelve 
Look like cash and they all just stare 
Bottles, models standin on chairs 
Ball out cause that's the business 
All out it's so ridic-lous 
Zone out so much attention 
Scream out I'm in the building (hey! ) 
They watchin I know this 
I'm rockin, I'm rolling 
I'm holding, I know it 
You know it 

You know I know how 
To make em stop and stare as I zone out 
The club can't even handle me right now 
Watchin you watchin me I go all out 
The club can't even handle me right now (yeah) 
The club can't even handle me right now (yeah) 

Still feelin myself I'm like outta control 
Can't stop now more shots lets go 
Ten more rounds can I get a Kato 
Paparazzi trying to make me pose 
Came to party till I can't no more 
Celebrate coz that's all I know 
Tip the groupies takin off their clothes 
Grand finale' like superbowl 
Go hard run the show 
That's right wild out got money to blow 
More lights more ice when I walk in the door 
No hype do it big all over the globe 

I said it 
Go tell it 
Who ready? 
I'm ready! 
You ready! 
Lets get it! 

You know I know how 
To make em stop and stare as I zone out 
The club can't even handle me right now 
Watchin you watchin me I go all out 
The club can't even handle me right now (yeah) 
(Put your hands up!) 
(Put your hands up!) 
(Put your hands up!) 
The club can't even handle me right now (yeah) 
(Put your hands up! ) 
(Put your hands up! ) 
(Put your hands up! ) 

You got me watchin now 
Got my attention now 
Got everybody in the club wanting to know now 
I am a ladies man 
Come be my lady and... 
We can both, zone, out 
Bring ya body and let me switch up the atmosphere 
Take you up out of this club and in my new lim 
Fly you all around the world 
What you want baby girl 
Are you ready to go now! 

You know I know how 
To make em stop and stare as I zone out 
The club can't even handle me right now 
Watchin you watchin me I go all out 
The club can't even handle me right now (yeah) 
(Put your hands up!) 
(Put your hands up!) 
(Put your hands up!) 
The club can't even handle me right now (yeah) 
(Put your hands up!) 
Lets celebrate now 
(Put your hands up!) 
You know who shut em down!