So tired... Woke up at 7.30 this morning, just sleep for 4hrs, had difficult exam, starving in the exam and even after the exam, but a little bit happy because I finished my exam and had a good time with my friends then we watched transformers 2, got home at 9.30pm, packed all the stuff because I'm going back to Indo tomorrow and going to move room too. So have to pack all of the things.
So u can imagine how tired I am... Even, I haven't finished now.
Got headache already, and maybe lack of blood coz I'm getting my period too so my head is really spinning. But still OK!

Then..
Talked to him... only for few minutes because the clock is already 1.10am,
and he made me angry.
Just few words from him and that's all, words that make me mad...
I know he didn't mean that. I know that is only for joking around like usual.
But, I just want to hear few sentences that can make me happy, relax, and enjoy our conversation.
Maybe because I'm so tired too so I become so sensitive..
And because I think that I won't be able to talk to him for 3 days and I miss him so I want to talk to him first...
I know it's always me that misses him every time.
I know he misses me too (or not? d*mn),
but I know he is not a kind of person that will say it easily.
That's why.. sometimes I feel that if he suddenly said that kind of things, it means that he really really meant it. But that..
Sometimes, I want to hear that words often. hux...

So we ended up angry each other,
I'm not sure he is angry or not...
But I'm sure he also pissed off.
I know I'm wrong too.. but... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!
So, I'm off.. he's off. DONE!

GREAT! Really make my day! Huhhhh....
And it's 3.10 am, haven't slept. Got a flight tomorrow evening, still have to clean up my room for moving room and now....
not sure whether I can sleep or not because of this fight.
And he didn't text me. Ok... I don't know.
Tired... and got a bad headache.

Here I am..

In the middle of midnight... more than midnight actually.
Want to sleep but still have so many things in my mind :(
Starting from exam, moving room, studying, him, holiday, next semester, etc.

Going to face exam in 11 days.
Trying to understand the 'IP routing table, MRTG, ICMP, SNMP, DHCP, DNS, RMON, TCP, etc' and all of their bullshit. huahaha... Not bullshit actually, sometimes it is useful too... for people who like networking so much. And that will definitely not me !!!! fiuhhhh...
Even, still have 2 more subjects to study beside that.

Disturbed by body problem too..
U should know what a main problem that a girl/woman is about her body..!!
Yuppp.. weight problem!
Can't make my weight scale go down...
That ruins my plan to enjoy eating in next holiday. GREAT.


Missing him so much... but,
think I got something wrong inside my head.
I feel something different about him lately,
after he got back his internet connection few days ago...
And now, in this situation that I can't chat with him as much as before because I have to study,
feel that he doesn't have 'that' passion to chat with me, and yeah... we didn't chat as much as before.
He is not smiling as much as before too,
and... dunno, somehow I just feel something is not right.
Does he have a problem? Does something happen to his life?
Or is it just the effect because of those problems that disturbing me?
Hope that's true, hope it's only my bad feeling T-T

Hope that he can be here now,
accompany me studying,
hug me and says 'Nothing is wrong, everything is OK'.
But, I know.. that's only hope.


Trying to ignore all of those problems and the cold weather now...
Trying to leave it until exam is finished...
Trying to study seriously tomorrow and so on...
Trying to understand and remember those words printed in the lecture slides too...
And the most important now,
trying to sleep well tonight,
trying not to bother anything at the moment...

Now you got it? haha... Not important, doesn't make sense but funny enough, right??!! ^^