Showing posts with label job. Show all posts
Showing posts with label job. Show all posts
New Year, New Me, New You
Hi hi...
It's been a while since my last post... long time indeed.

Oh, 1st of all Merry Christmas and Happy New Year to all of you :)
I thank God for everything in 2013, all of His blessing, His guidance, His plans for me and every little things happened in my life in the past one year.

Secondly, life has been very busy lately with the new macarons business here in my hometown.
Even though it's very small now, I hope it will be big someday. I hope it's growing slowly but surely.
Even though when I am not busy doing work, I will be enjoying my me-time. I admit that I do appreciate it more now.
It's hard to have time with yourself alone when you live back with your parents, surrounded by your dad's and mom's employees.
Somehow I don't find peace here, I don't feel homey but what can I do? I just need to survive it for now.

Besides, my business is going fine for now so it's kind of my motivation. I am getting more orders and more people know it better recently and I am thinking of opening another side-business.
I know it's too soon but at this age, at least for me, I can't just sit back and do nothing. Not that it's a stupid and reckless idea, I will surely think and plan it really carefully if I want to open one.

My mom said to me one day not to bake because the weather is really bad (bad weather is macarons' enemy), but I insisted and she said to me not to be afraid of what people say, I need to think about what I do, if it's not good to be done on that day then don't do it.

I was like 'what do you mean, mom?'. She replied, 'Don't just do work because you're afraid people will say you're jobless.'

I was like 'What? No!' I am not afraid of what people say. It's just not my thing to sit relax and do nothing when what I've done is not 100% perfect yet. People also say 'Do something you love, and you will love doing it'. EXACTLY! I love to bake so I love doing it. Even in a bad weather, even when the results are not perfect I still love doing it. And when finally I see the good and perfect results (even in a bad weather), it's a double satisfaction for me :)

So, I am still planning on what's next, searching and building new ideas, trying to realise it, keeping everything in order and making what I've done to be even better.
Sometimes, I feel I don't have time to think about anything else. In my mind, the only 2 things I concern now are to be successful and to travel a lot. Hehehe... still, travel is a list! (:

Ok, time to go to bed now.
Happy new year peeps once again, may this new year brings us luck and health and may we are all be blessed. 'Til next post!
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For Good?
Life is getting so depressing for me at the moment.
Doing nothing is suffering for sure.
Maybe I am crazy, but for now, I can't wait to go back to Indo.
I booked my seat yesterday from my 1-year return ticket, and it will be next month.
Sounds so close, but for me it's like 100 years.
Sad? Of course. I will leave my friends here and leave what I've been familiar with in the past 6 years... ohhh almost 7 actually.

But I believe this is the best for me now, I need change, I need new environment, I need to find my passion, I need my best friends and of course my boyfriend.

Besides excited, I am scared too. Deep down in my heart, I am afraid that if I can't do well when I am back there. What if I can't find any job? 
What if I find a job that I don't like again? 
What if I don't like the environment in the end?
What if I can't stand the traffic and the country itself?
I really want to start and open something that I like but everything is not that easy.
I am confused too if I should stay in my hometown or really move to Jakarta.

Either way, I wish I can go back now or even few months earlier cos I feel I am wasting my time here by doing nothing. In Indo, everything is much easier especially to start something new.
However, one day, I still hope that I can go back to Melbourne as I love this city so much.
Even tho Indonesia is my birth country, living in a country that follows rules where everything is so clear and organised is beyond everything.
You find peace which you can't get in Indo.

Anyway, that's it for now. Looking forward to it next month.
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Grateful
I am in the middle of nowhere at the moment.... of my life.
I am confused for what I want, am trying to find my identity.
I am trying to look for what I am capable of and what I should do for a living, for future.
And with all the problems in it, happens to me or to anyone who is related to me,
I sometimes think that 'why I don't have a life like her/him', 'why I don't have a job like them' or anything that human can think of a jealousy.

Thus, I look at my surroundings again, not too far, started from my close friends....
then I realize I am still a lucky person. At least I have everything I want so far, most of my plans work smoothly til now and I still live my life adequately.

There is a friend said to me one night, "You need to live your life 100%, either you have a job or not, either you are happy or not, either you have money or not, either you are in problem or not... I know it's not like you choose your life to be miserable but it is a life from God, you've been given a chance to live so if you do it 100%, you will find a way and you'll be helped."

Well, I am not a very very religious person but when he said that to me, I was like 'Dammit, it goes to my heart and to my mind!' It's maybe true cos what I do til the previous second is just complaining.

So for what I have and for my life, I'm grateful. I thank God and I will always be.

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Like A Bird
I am free like a bird!

Thank you all for the gift, card, memories, friendships and love :)

I will surely miss you all.



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Move On
Tomorrow is the 15th.
Time for me to move on.
End of January is almost here too....

Wish everything goes well and hope I made the right decision.
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Quarter-life Crisis
Tomorrow is officially a week that I've been in Indo for my holiday.
Been practically doing nothing everyday except going with my family,
sometimes with friends,
going to gym,
doing some stuffs that need to be done.
And I can say... I am so bored!
One week... and feel like I have enough.

Now, I am thinking if I really do resign when I arrive back in Melbourne,
then what do I do?
Doing nothing for few months?
I guess I am gonna die.

I feel like I am in midlife crisis, oh wait maybe quarter-life crisis as I am not even 25 yet.

Trying to find something on my own for my future.
Seeking for the right opportunity.
Deciding what exactly I want to do,
what to do first, where to settle and when the exact time is.
Geez! Life is hard, earning money for a living is even harder.

While I am thinking about all of this,
where I am in Indo,
my mood swings a lot.
I feel like it's too homey.
Feels like doing nothing for my life, just relax.
All of the plans are just plans.
I do nothing with it, don't even discuss it with my dad.
Dohhh!! Ironic! Crazy me!

Am I really ready to quit my current job and do nothing for few months?
Oh God...

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ROFL
The next day, he got a reply from his manager:

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Antologi Rasa and I
I am reading this novel called Antologi Rasa while I am waiting for church time at 6pm.
And, I keep thinking that I need to go to work at 7.30am tomorrow to make up time, which makes me sustain enough.
Suddenly I got a text message from my colleague saying that she will be away sick tomorrow.
What does that mean?
That means I need to go to work at 6am tomorrow to cover her shift.

What is the worst than you need to arrive at work at 6am on Monday morning?
As a normal human being, as a normal employee,
I feel like screaming and swearing, complaining this job of mine and hope that my last job interview went well so I can get a new better job.

But this novel, Antologi Rasa tells me that I still need to be grateful for everything that I have until now,
while a lot of people out there are suffering more.
A lot of shitty things happen to all characters in this novel, from complicated love feeling, work overtime for months and months, screw your own best friend and friendship, etc.
The main character, Keara likes photography a lot and uses this to run away from job, stress or anything depressing, uses photography as a magic to calm her down and to keep her sane.

I really like the part that Keara can always consider the work is to fill the time between weekends.
Hmmm... maybe I should to that too so I can enjoy and treat the life as free as her.

So? Now? I just need to calm myself down as well, being thankful for what I have now and just read this novel to distract my mind... ahhh, and go to church later.
I always find that I can always feel peaceful when I am in church.
And looking at what I am doing in this lazy Sunday...
Staying in 22nd floor of this good-categorized apartment, with a today's not-too-hot-not-too-cold perfect weather, having a cup of green tea, reading this entertaining, calming yet inspiring novel and realized that I've got what I want and what I've planned until now...

I am grateful...
I want more, I want better life...
But it's enough.... for me... for now.


*Antologi Rasa by Ika Natassa from 22nd floor, Melbourne, with CBD view on it.
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Routine!
I want to write... but I don't know what to write.
Just another routine!
Boring!
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Oh My Brain!
I feel that my brain skills has reduced dramatically since I graduated last year.
I realize that my current job does not need a lot of business or technical skills.
In fact that we are doing the same thing everyday makes me not using my brain more.

And suddenly, when I need to analyze or answer analytic questions, I am so screwed!

I told my mom about this and she forced me to drink Vitamin especially Fish Oil.
Okay okay...

Is that really a solution or getting a better job will be the solution?
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Hectic!
I've been swearing a lot this week... A lot!
Seriously, these clients and this people make me become a bad person in 1 week only!

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Can Life be Better Now?
It's been only 4 days since I came back to Melbourne on Sunday morning and I am very messy at the moment.

I woke up late twice already within this 4 days.
I don't have any mood to work.

What's in my mind now?
It's only how to find a new job or create my own business.
I know it's not easy, I can say it is hard instead.
I am stuck!
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What a Friday Morning!
Client: I can't login to IRESS blackberry. It said invalid username and password. I think I just reset my password yesterday.
Me: Do you remember the password you just reset yesterday?
Him: Yes.
Me: Can you go to login page and re-type your password. Maybe it still stores the old one.
Him: What login page?
Me: *he?
Him: Usually I open the application and it works automatically
Me: Yes, you can just simply go to IRESS Menu > login page and type the new password
Him: I don't even know what menu and how to do that
Me: *inhale exhale Which Blackberry you use?
Him: I don't know
Me: *Geez! God help me! You don't the know the Blackberry type you use?
Him: It's touch screen and has sliding page
Me: Torch?
Him: Maybe
Me: *speechless
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One Step Ahead
Good news that my PR will definitely come out soon.
I am so happy of it because that means I can fulfill my pending plan which is looking for another job that requires PR, well at least the better one compared to what I am doing at the moment.
That means better position, better salary, better company.

I do have some companies inside my mind that I really want to work in.
Hope that everything will happen as I expect.
If not, I am thinking to move out from Melbourne first.
I will have 3 years after my PR is out before I need to go back to Melbourne and stay here for the whole 2 years in order to extend my PR.

I am thinking to go to China to study or go to Singapore to get a work experience there.
Of course I am more tempted to go to China.
In fact that you only need to learn Chinese and you can travel around Asia from there.
Well, that's what I see from my friends. I never see them studying, only travelling travelling and traveling.
On the other hand, I also want to keep staying in Melbourne and build my career here so by 25 or 26 I will be a successful career woman.
The obstacle is only loneliness.
Everyone is starting to go back for good and no one left here.
The one that still stay here are all couple so it doesn't make any difference.
I am still alone. Fiuhh...
Life is surely hard! I am gonna think about it very carefully before I make the decision.
Wish me luck!
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My Job is not Cool
Today is labor day, a public holiday in Melbourne and guess where I am now?!

I am busy in the office while all people are outside enjoying the sun and watching the parade.
What makes my day worse, my friend just called me asking whether I am going to watch the parade or not --"

Remind me not to look for jobs related to stock market or hospital or whatever that I need to work on public holiday in the future. Believe me, it sucks!
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Horrible Me
"Marcia, is that you? You looked different today..."

That was the first sentence that some of my colleagues said to me this morning.
Not "Hey Marcia, good morning" not "How are you today?"

Well, if you heard something like that, you will be embarrassed or happy cos it usually means good.
But, today, in my case, I don't think it means a compliment.
In fact, I think it means 'you didn't look appealing' but they said it in proper and polite way. *sighhh
That was what people in my department (only!) said to me.
The thing is I went to the kitchen after that to make some breakfast, then I met this guy in the kitchen.
He was from other department and I wasn't even too close with him.
And guess what he said to me.
Okay, he still said how are you bla bla bla, but after that he said...
"Is that you Marcia? You looked... different."

Damn! First thing that I did after I finished making breakfast and stopped having conversation with him was running to the toilet and looked at myself.

Am I really that horrible?
And I realized that I am that horrible today.
I didn't have enough sleep in the past 2 days.
I just finished my period yesterday which made me not fit enough.
And I had this dinner with a friend yesterday so the plan that I would be at home earlier and stayed relax was cancelled.
Even I got home not really late, I couldn't sleep until 12 and ended up woke up late this morning so sleepy.
So, I didn't have a chance to wash my hair and it was really really truly a bad hair day!
Therefore, I decided to tie my hair so it won't be too obvious if I hadn't washed my hair.

But, I guess I was wrong.
It turned out the other way around.
It made my hair worse as it was limp and really messy.
And you know what? I didn't put any make up as well today (well, I usually only use powder and eye-liner which now I realize it brings a lot of differences to your appearance).
Then, I met my friend on lunch. Note: unplanned!
When I waited for her, she passed me by until I called her name and she looked at me for one second from the top of my hair down to my toe and... "Cia, what happen with you?" *with shocked face

Damn... again!
The worst part was why when I didn't put any make up and didn't care how I looked like, I met these guys in my office's food court which I could say that they are not bad, with the neat and perfect suits/shirts, pants, ties and good-looking face.

PERFECT!
Just remind myself from now on to wash my hair and (at least) to look OK every time I step out of my apartment.
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Me?!
Sometimes, after I watched Grey's Anatomy...
I wanna be a surgeon.

One day, after I read a novel...
I wanna be a writer.

Previously, after I looked at Sydney Opera House...
I wanna be an architect.

At times, when I saw a really nice picture with gorgeous couple and beautiful dress in it...
I wanna be a wedding organizer.

Once in a while, when I ate in crowded restaurants/cafe and had delicious food and coffee...
I wanna open a cafe.

Ohh... I am so naive! LOL!
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Stuck!
Few days ago, I thought of my life.
What should I do to survive here in Melbourne?
What should I do if I want to live in here forever?
What should I do if I want to make changes in my life?
What should I do if I want to earn much money for a living?
What should I do if I want to bring my parents here later on?
What should I do to make my life more challenging?
What should I do to have passion in what I do?
What should I do to get people aware of my existence in business life?
What should I do to be successful?

Until now, I haven't got any answer for my questions.
Not even for one of them.
I am stuck!
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First and Second Day at Work
Hi again...
I am officially starting my first full-time job.

My first day was yesterday. Well, it's not too bad. I was introduced to all people in the company, especially the one in the IT field. The company is divided into different levels. The IT and support division which include helpdesk analyst, support analyst, developer, desktop support, technician and database support are in level 17. Level 18 is the main office which include receptionist, meeting room, account executives and many others who deal with the clients directly. As far as I know, there is one more office which is in level 22 and this is the human resources team. Quite good, huh?

So, basically yesterday, I went through all of them, introduced myself to other people, set up my account and password and had some training. Ohhh... btw, I am still on training until 7th October. The company is related to finance which I am not familiar with. Yesterday, when I read, learnt and tried to understand some papers related to the company and my job... there are some alien words written there, such as options, trades, future, trade analysis, depth, watchlists, warranty, etc etc. My God! I said to myself, "Okay.. I think I need to start studying finance ASAP!" That time, I was thinking of my friend who could teach me finance. hahahaha....

Today is much better. I start to understand some finance terms and it's actually not that bad. hehehe.... Besides, today, I am more familiar with the people and the environment and I realize that it's so good. I said this because yesterday I didn't have passion for it. I felt that this is not right for me, this is not what I want, I want more and I am not satisfied with it. After I thought about it last night, I know that of course I won't be satisfied easily with this role. My role is the basic basic role in IT field. hahahaha... So, I promise to myself I will work hard and be responsible so I can be promoted or at least get higher position. In fact, I know that I can't be what I want straight away without any IT experience. So, I know this is the best for me now.

The worst part was I got headache yesterday. I guessed it was because I didn't have proper breakfast and lunch so when the clock showed 4.00pm, I was dizzy and sleepy... VERY! Moreover, I did a lot of reading  and a mini test yesterday so my eyes and my brain were tired as well. When the clock showed 5.00, my manager said to me:

Manager: "How're you going? Tired? I know, it will be hard for the first time. There will be a lot of reading when you are on training. But, you will get used to it, right Van?" (Van is my colleague)
Van: "Yes, the first 3 weeks... HEADACHE! Hahahaha..."
Me: (Only in my thought) I got headache already now, no need to wait until 3 weeks. *sighh

Luckily, today is much better, interesting and easier. I also had some conversations with some colleagues this evening. One of the conversation:
M: "How old are you?"
Me: "I am turning 21 next month"
M: "Whattt?? You're so young."
Me: "Am I?"
M: "Yes! I wish I am still 21. Hey Cathy, Marcia is still 20 years old."
Me: "No, I'm turning 21 soon."
C: "Reallyy?! Wow! You're so young. I wish I am still 21 as well."
M and C: "Ahhh, you're a baby."
Me: ....

I think I am going to love my current job. Ciaoooo.... ^^
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