2011 almost ends.
Thank you for everything in one year.
For all of the experiences, happiness and sadness.
I pray for everyone to be a better person in 2012.
I wish everyone luck and healthy in this new year.

I hope that 2012 can be a better year for my family, my friends and myself.
I hope that 2012 brings me new life, new resolution, new experience, new relationship and new me.
Better friendship, better career, better income and better in perfection.

So everyone, let us put up our new year's resolutions, our effort and ourselves to welcome 2012.
Last but not least, allow me to say to you all....

Well well well...
I am so excited!

Booked the hotel in Thai.
Booked the ticket from Melbourne to Bangkok and Bangkok to Phuket.
Confirmed with other members.
Informed my parents.
Informed my friends in Thai.




I wish everything goes well and I hope this trip will be fun and safe. hehehehe...

What a good plan to end 2011! ^.^

"Jika keduanya saling suka, makan keduanya akan saling usaha.
Kalau cuma kamu yang usaha, berarti dia gak suka.
Simple."

- Mario Teguh

Thinking to buy a camera, not a SLR one, digital is enough for me.
Thinking I will need it soon or later. Lol!
Thinking that my camera sucks so it can be a good investment as well.
And.. thinking that tomorrow is boxing day, should I buy it?

Considering this one below, Canon SX40HS.
JB HI-FI price is 596.
What the?! CRYING!
Hmm... maybe I will still check it out tomorrow. Damn!
Please 50% discount on boxing day.....

My US trip is cancelled T-T
We plan to go to Thai and Macau instead on Feb.
Finger cross this trip will happen.
I am craving for holiday already.

About my annual leave?
Can't be stuffed, I will take it again, paid or unpaid.
I made up my mind already, 100%.

Hi hi hi...
I have office team xmas party tonight in my apartment.
It's a potluck party so everyone needs to cook and bring their own country dish.
I am given a task to prepare the dessert and am planning to make martabak manis a.k.a terang bulan as it's Indonesian signature dish.
But, who knows there will be something ruining it... I make another dessert.

New York Baked Cheesecake! Tadaaaa!!!
I actually randomly picked this as I don't know what to make.
Egg tart is boring so I want to try something new.
My choices are between cheesecake or macaroon.
I compared both recipes, ingredients and how to make it... forget about macaroon.
It's so troublesome, in fact that if this does not turn well, I will be screwed.
So, I decided to make cheesecake and will try to make macaroon later on.

Here is the recipe:

Crust:
250gr biscuit
125gr butter

Filling:
750 gr cream cheese - softened
225gr cup caster sugar
3 eggs
169gr cup sour cream
1/4 cup lemon juice
lemon grind

Process:
Pre-heat the oven at 180 degrees Celcius.
1. Melt butter, ground biscuit. Mix both well, put it in the fridge for 30 minutes.
2. Mix cream cheese, lemon grind and sugar until it is mixed well.
3. Add egg one at a time and mix it well each time.
4. Add sour cream and lemon juice, mix it well.
5. Take the crust from the fridge, pour the filling on the top of the crust.
6. Bake in the oven at 180 degrees Celcius for 1 hour and 15 minutes. Leave it in the oven (door closed) for another 20-30 minutes.
7. Once it is cooled down and set, take from the oven, leave it for 15 minutes to cool down and put it in the fridge for 3 hours or overnight.

The results?




Not that hard, isn't it?
Enjoy and try it at home.

Woot woot...
I am falling in love with this shoe last week when I visited Tony Bianco store in Melbourne Central.
They only have 3 colours ready in the shop which is black, purple and pattern.
Lucky I asked them if they have more colours and they showed me with the Pre-Order thingy from the website.

And... guess what?
They have more coming soon. I can do the pre-order and will get it by max 22 January.
So I did! Happy much... lol!

Dear Shopaholics,

Another website for shopping online.
http://www.revolveclothing.com/Homepage.jsp
I found this web from Google accidentally.
Browse through some items especially jewelry and it's actually pretty good.
The price is competitive and even cheaper than any other online shops and again.. free shipping.
Yippie!

Bought some jewelry already from here. Currently waiting, hope the real items will be as good as it looks in the web.

Ciao and Happy Shopping!

A friend told me, 'If you really move on from the past, from the bad things happened or from the person you used to love, God will know and you will find and will get something or someone better. For sure...'

and I am here... trapped in the past.
So, what should I do so I can move on?

Maybe my friend is right. What she said is all makes sense.
Until now, I always think that if I get something or someone to fill or replace the past first then I will be able to forget and move on.
But, it won't be fair... for them or for myself because I just use them as a rebound.

Usually people cannot move on because the feeling is still there... in the heart.
But my case, I have erased most of them from my heart.
It's my head... the problem. My mind!
Maybe it's too many memories but maybe I am wrong.
Maybe I still have the feeling in my heart? Maybe somehow I still put a hope on it? Maybe I am still not willing to let it go?
CRAP!

I have just received a ring that I bought few weeks ago from Chicwish.

Suddenly I just remember this song and feel like playing it....
I love the song though.
I am not a person who likes Indonesian song but I like this song so much.
The lyrics, the rhythm, the music, the feeling... everything.
Somehow, I can feel the pain...

Enjoy... even it is in Indonesia, try to listen.
It's a nice song.

Maroon 5 and Christina - Moves Like McJagger

Another thank you and big hug for my dearest friends for the very-super-duper-freaking-high-heels-Tony Bianco shoes and the purple O'Clock watch.

Before you judge me, I know I am so outdated because I just post polaroid topic now.
Anyway, just got this Fujifilm Instax Mini from my friends as a birthday present.
Happy happy... I did not think that they will give me this polaroid camera tho.
Never think about it and I never be that interested in buying this because I know the price is not cheap.
But as a gift? Of course I am excited.
As a result? Now I am tempted to buy more more films for it which is frigging expensive and also the cute cute bag for it.

They also gave me 400 excuses to skip work. lol! I think this will be really interesting... and useful. *wink wink

I am reading this novel called Antologi Rasa while I am waiting for church time at 6pm.
And, I keep thinking that I need to go to work at 7.30am tomorrow to make up time, which makes me sustain enough.
Suddenly I got a text message from my colleague saying that she will be away sick tomorrow.
What does that mean?
That means I need to go to work at 6am tomorrow to cover her shift.

What is the worst than you need to arrive at work at 6am on Monday morning?
As a normal human being, as a normal employee,
I feel like screaming and swearing, complaining this job of mine and hope that my last job interview went well so I can get a new better job.

But this novel, Antologi Rasa tells me that I still need to be grateful for everything that I have until now,
while a lot of people out there are suffering more.
A lot of shitty things happen to all characters in this novel, from complicated love feeling, work overtime for months and months, screw your own best friend and friendship, etc.
The main character, Keara likes photography a lot and uses this to run away from job, stress or anything depressing, uses photography as a magic to calm her down and to keep her sane.

I really like the part that Keara can always consider the work is to fill the time between weekends.
Hmmm... maybe I should to that too so I can enjoy and treat the life as free as her.

So? Now? I just need to calm myself down as well, being thankful for what I have now and just read this novel to distract my mind... ahhh, and go to church later.
I always find that I can always feel peaceful when I am in church.
And looking at what I am doing in this lazy Sunday...
Staying in 22nd floor of this good-categorized apartment, with a today's not-too-hot-not-too-cold perfect weather, having a cup of green tea, reading this entertaining, calming yet inspiring novel and realized that I've got what I want and what I've planned until now...

I am grateful...
I want more, I want better life...
But it's enough.... for me... for now.

Mengapa penyesalan selalu datang terlambat?
Mengapa pengalaman tidak membuatku lebih pintar?
Mengapa aku selalu membuat kesalahan kecil nan bodoh?

Tetapi, aku tetap percaya....

I will learn more, improve myself and do the best!

I skydived!!! Finally!! At last!

After it got cancelled so many times because of the bad weather, my friends and I finally did it!
How was it?
It was AWESOME, fun, super exciting, challenging and a lot lot lot more.
It was worth with the price and the experience... you should at least try it once in a lifetime.
We all got a great feeling of it, precious experience.
If the price is not that expensive, I would like to go more and more. hehehehe...

I am too lazy to explain the whole activity, but the point is we arrived there 8am in the morning, did paper work, briefing, preparation, went up to the sky with a small plane, jumped for the free fall (30 seconds), flying in the sky, got the parachute opened for few minutes and then landed.

It was spectacular! Roller coaster is nothing compared to this.
If you like challenging and adrenalin things, you should try this.

Ciao!

Oh no! I shopped again! Another bag!
Really, I should not open fashion blog and I really shouldn't stay at home too long on weekend. Danger!

But I couldn't stand for this one as the model is unique, pretty textured, nice color. Arghhh!
I bought it from Romwe and I got 20% disc for new member and free shipping.
Now you understand why I can't resist it?

Apricot:

 Pink:
I actually like the pink color more, but when I checked my wardrobe and I have some bags with similar colours so I decided to buy the apricot one to make my collection more varied.

Can't wait!

We had lunch one day... after a while as she was busy with her boyfriend's parents and her friend from Indo.

When we were eating half way, suddenly...
Ade: "Cia, btw, I am engaged! hehehehe..." (with a relaxed and innocent face)
Me: *blank but looking at her hands automatically
Ade: *she realized. "But I forgot to bring the ring, it's in my home."
Me: *stop eating. "Hah? Whattt?!! You're engaged? For real? Seriously"
Ade: *smiling "Yeah. hehehe..."
Me: "WOW! Congrats!"

And we had this conversation in how her boyfriend annoyed her for the whole week and when the day came, his graduation day, with his parents, he proposed in front of her house.

OMG! this is the first time I heard my close friend is going to marry.
I am so excited! I know, it should be her who is excited much.

And... this means that we are old already.

I am trying to improve myself.

Try to exercise routinely, swim and have healthy food on the weekdays but eat a lot on the weekend. hahahaha... maybe this is why I gain weight instead of losing weight when I do exercise.
I have decided to control my food starting from tomorrow, not for losing weight but to live healthy. And if I can get back to my original me long time ago? Thanks God for this.
Wish me luck!

Try to take care of myself more, especially my skin.
Used some skin products to make it brighter, more fresh and cleaner.
I am not sure if I really need it but who cares? ;p

Finding a new job? This is ain't easy anymore.
In fact, it is so hard but maybe because I don't put much effort on it.
Sometimes, I feel like quiting my job right away so I can breathe for a while and then looking for a new one with full concentration.
Am I going to do that? Of course NOT! I am too scared to be an unemployed person.
Why? Because I realize I am a shopaholic and I have a lot of bills to pay.

My friend once asked me 'Do u really want to work for others, live your current life by working 8-5, always waiting for the payday and spending most of it to pay rent and bills?'
DAMN! What should I do?

Try new things.

Hope can meet new people and new friends.

Try to enjoy the emptiness. Honestly? I am not sure for this at all.

Try to be discipline, try to find some ideas of business, try to see my future but not to think too much.

And I hope I can accomplish everything, one by one... slowly but surely.

It's 27th October today.
I had my birthday last Sunday..
Got a surprise from my friends - thank you.
Got a birthday cake, a lot of macaroons and 6 shots.
Damn! I am still not happy with the shots.

They're about 12 people there and they forced me to drink 6 shots of 50% alcohol drink.
Well, I don't mind drinking alcohol as long as it tastes nice but as far as I know there is no alcohol tastes nice.
I don't even know what the name of the things I drank last Sunday.
Even I asked for Tequila only, all of my friends did not listen to me --"

After 6 shots, it was 1am already and the fact that I had not passed out and threw every thing up, and even I still can walk straight was really good. I gave applause to myself for that. LOL!
But, you never know... right after I stepped my foot in my apartment, I went to the kitchen to drink a lot of water because my head started to spin... and the next second, I ran to the toilet, throwing everything.
Sighhh! Thanks to my friend.

Well, you can guess after that, I was dead on the bed and could not do anything.
The next morning, I had a really bad headache and my stomach was empty... HUNGREHH!
Lucky, it did not last long. I managed to drink Panadol, had lunch and thanks God the headache was gone.

On Monday, I got another cake and present from my colleagues.
Another tiramisu and lingerie for the present. Geez!
Believe it or not, it was a lingerie that my colleagues and I looked at few weeks before and on Sunday night, I dream about it. Gosh!

Anyway, thank you for everyone who celebrating my birthday.
Me love you long time! ;)

I want to write... but I don't know what to write.
Just another routine!
Boring!

This is why women can't trust men! LOL!
This is what makes women and men against each other. hahaha..

ckckckckck

I feel that my brain skills has reduced dramatically since I graduated last year.
I realize that my current job does not need a lot of business or technical skills.
In fact that we are doing the same thing everyday makes me not using my brain more.

And suddenly, when I need to analyze or answer analytic questions, I am so screwed!

I told my mom about this and she forced me to drink Vitamin especially Fish Oil.
Okay okay...

Is that really a solution or getting a better job will be the solution?