Well well well...
Today is the last day of this year.
Excited? Yeah.. so so...

Honestly, I don't know where to go with my parents and my sister tonight.
I am still confused deciding which restaurant I should bring them to eat for dinner. LOL!
Most of the good restaurants are closed due to Christmas and New Year events itself.
Moreover, my father wants to eat Chinese Food... that makes everything harder --"

Anyway, usually people will have their new year resolutions.
I am thinking of mine and here it is:

1. Work harder to get some promotion and more salary. LOL!
2. Pass my IELTS test (this is really really urgent and to be honest, annoying but can't avoid it. I will try to love it so I will pass it. hahahaha...)
3. I really want to do this since long time ago: Going abroad with friends using our own salary, either for real holiday or just for long weekend. (I know it's a little bit crazy to go abroad on the weekend, like we get 100.000k/year salary but in fact we don't ;p). The place? I really want to go to Thailand, esp. Bangkok and Phuket. Well, I want Europe and America as well but those can wait after I really earn more than 100.000k/year. Argh, life is so hard!
4. Have a boyfriend? I just realize that in the last few years, I always have this resolution and I did fulfill it. However, it will never last until the next new year so I will put it as my new year resolution again. What a shame!
5. Ah, almost forgot! Diet! This is kind of bullshit because I always put it as my resolution as well every year. But, what can I say? To do diet here is so hard. Last time I lost almost 4 kilos already but now it comes back :( 
6. What else? Hmmm.... just want to be a better person ^.^

This post is dedicated for my beloved Mom.
Today is Mother's day in Indonesia so I just want to share something.


M - O - T - H - E - R
"M" is for the million things she gave me,
"O" means only that she's growing old,
"H" is for her heart of purest gold,
"E" is for her eyes, with love-light shining,
"R" means right, and right she'll always be,
Put them all together, they spell
"MOTHER"
A word that means a world to me.
by: Howard Johnson (c. 1915)

Mom...
You deserve much more than words can say;
You make me feel I always will pray,

“God, please, be with Mom in a special way.
Give her Your blessings throughout the day.
Show her the meaning, the reason for her to stay.
Let Your angels guard her; don’t let her go astray.
Help her see the good of Your work; keep the evil away.
Keep her smiling; dry her tears, if You may.
Let her that whenever there’s trouble,
She can turn to You; You’ll help her struggle.
Let her know that here on Earth,
She’ll never know what she’s really worth,
But up there, up there in Heaven,
She’s guarded by an angel, no, make that seven:

Three on her right to help her hold on tight,
Three on her left to help her have hope in the stars so bright,
And one in front of her to help her see the light, Your light…

Please, let her know how precious she is
In our hearts even if we’re not showing this.
Let her know we’re always there
To help her out through our prayer.
We may not feel what she’s passing through,
But let her know we try our best to do.
Let her know that whenever she’s down,
We can feel it without a frown.
Help us se Your goodness through her,
Through Your words wherever we were…”

That’s my prayer for you every night.
May this give you hope in everything in sight.
And please, know that wherever you are,
Know that we love you and care whether we’re near or far…
*taken from here

Remember the Oroton wallet that I really want before?
I got it, as a present from my best friend.
She said it's for graduation, birthday and celebration gift as I lost my wallet too.
Arghhh... I am so happy. Have it for a while already but still so happy ^^
Thanks a lot, dear. Muach2...

Nothing much happen though recently.
Still go to work everyday but not too busy compared to few weeks ago.
Well, it's good for us so we have chance to talk and laugh more in the office.
Had Xmas Party with colleagues as well last time and birthday party tomorrow, but I don't think I will go cos most of my colleagues are not going :(

Many of my friends went back to Indo already for holiday.
Melbourne is so quiet for me now T-T
Anyway, some of my friends got job lately, think it was early Christmas present from Santa (:

My parents and my sister are coming to Melbourne soon for Christmas and New Year holiday.
Hmmm.... might not meet my friends for around 10 days, but we'll see.
I should enjoy my freedom first before all of those thingy schedules comes. hahahaha....

I guess it's a long update.
Ciao!

God, please please...
I only have one wish for Christmas.
Please, hear my pray.
Please guide me, bless me so I can give my best for it.

Amen.

Well, maybe I imagine too far.
Maybe I dream too much.
Maybe I read too many novels.
Maybe I watch too many movies.
Maybe I am living in a fairytale world.

But, sometimes... I want to experience some random things that can be happened in this real world.
Random things that start something as well as random things that are started from something.
Like what??
Hmmm...
Random things, like a gift can sometimes be a start point of your career-life.
Like someone that you meet in lift can become your partner in life.
Like camera, music, movies can really mean something for your life.
Like meeting a person who can greatly affect your life.
Can those things really happen in life?
Not only by imagining in my dream world.
Not only by seeing it in the movies.
Not only in my thought after I read novels.

Maybe I am referring to coincidence not randomness.
Still...
I want to feel it.
To feel the challenge.
To feel the happiness of it.
To feel the joy.
To feel the beat of your heart because of it.
To feel the excitement.

I think my imagination is obsessing and controlling me too much. hahahaha...

Agnes Monica, she is one of talented artists and singers from Indonesia.
I am really proud of her and I idolized her.
I am not a big fans of Indonesian artist or singer but I can say that she is amazing, awesome and pretty.
She starts to go to international and recently she was asked to be one of the co-host in American Music Awards.

Can't say more about her. Finally, congratulations for your hard work! :)
The video below is her collaboration with Christian Chavez in AMA 2010.
Enjoy!

1. You eat, you're fat. You don't eat, you're a freak!
2. You read, you're a nerd. You don't read, you're stupid!
3. You tell a secret, you're an attention seeker. You don't tell a secret, you're still an attention seeker.
4. You smoke, you think you're cool. You don't smoke, you're a loser!
5. You let someone in, you're easy. You don't let someone in, you're to up tight.
6. You've had sex, you're a slut. You haven't had sex, you a frigid little b**ch.
7. You wear make up, you're a slag. You don't wear make up, you're ugly!

The lesson is: You can't please everyone.

Oh my gosh!
Boo is so cute. Can't stop looking at his picture!

Love love love <3
I want too. Okay, I am being so pathetic now. hahaha...

Few days ago, I thought of my life.
What should I do to survive here in Melbourne?
What should I do if I want to live in here forever?
What should I do if I want to make changes in my life?
What should I do if I want to earn much money for a living?
What should I do if I want to bring my parents here later on?
What should I do to make my life more challenging?
What should I do to have passion in what I do?
What should I do to get people aware of my existence in business life?
What should I do to be successful?

Until now, I haven't got any answer for my questions.
Not even for one of them.
I am stuck!

Nothing much happened lately.
Just common activities, go to work, go home, eat, shower, sleep.
It's kinda boring.

Even I go out with my friends sometimes on weekdays, it feels different.
I keep looking at the clock, make sure that the clock doesn't show the time for going home already.
I kinda miss my univ-life.
Well, I guess everyone who works already will do miss the univ-life.
Human....
When we are still in Univ, we want to graduate quickly and get a job.
When we got a job and work, we want to go back to univ-life.

Anw, I think I am going to have a small reunion with my univ-friends.
We contact each other and I am pretty sure we will arrange a time for gathering.
HAVE TO! I have no life. hahahaha....

Fortunately, these days is an amazing week for me.
After the mellow mellow feeling and had no appetite, it has been gone now.
My appetite comes back and my feeling is... fine enough, for now ;p
Not to mention, I got my friends back after exam took them away and we went out often and also the nice weather. Not too cold, not too hot. Perfect! Plus, without mentioning the job that we have to do, I am getting a pleasant atmosphere and having fun colleagues in the office.

Don't want to think too much.
Don't want to care too much.
Just enjoy the life!

It's sad when people you know

become people you knew.
When you can walk right past someone

like they were never a big part of your life.

How you used to be able to talk for hours.
And how now, you can barely even look at them. 

In [three] words i could sum up
Everything I learned about life:
it goes on.
Everything I learned about love:
it doesn't last. And...
Everything I learned about people:
they change fast.

People say damn those girls are never apart.

We say no shit bitch, we share the same  h e a r t .
She's just a silly girl

who keeps her hopes too high

and her jeans too low,

who lives by quotes and

can`t ever seem to say the right thing..

at the right time.

She's just another pretty girl

looking for herself in a big world,

who just wants someone to love her

and then everything would be alright.

Here's to the girls and silly cries.
Here's to the boys and telling lies.
Sneaking out and getting caught.
All the things that we've been taught.
Laughing, parties, crazy nights.
Searching for our Mr. right's.
Holding it down to the very end;
Sisters by heart and forever friends.

When u tell ur friend that u think u r ugly,

they`ll tell you that you are gorgeous.

But, when u tell ur best friend that u r ugly,

they`ll tell you to shut up 

and go put on some more make-up. =)

I want a guy that doesnt care about what I wear

or how I do my hair,

who loves my smile and my dorky laugh

and how I get hyper when I'm tired,

who would never want to see me cry

-- at least not tears of sadness.
And who would do those small things

that make my day just because he knows,

it would make me happy.
if you want me, then fight for me.
Because i`m fighting like hell for you.
Being a [ strong person ] means

knowing that in the end,

everything is going to be okay.

That`s the trick,

you can't care too much.

It's good to have guys like you,

but always keep them at a distance.

Never give them a chance to hurt you.

Love them, kiss them, flirt with them,

keep them on a string.
But never, ever, fall for one.

You don`t just "fall in love."

There's a lot more to it.
First you get distracted.

Second, you begin to stumble.
Third, you try to catch balance..

and then you fall and hit the ground

And finally,

u realize there's no-one there to help u up

So you wipe it off, fake a grin and stand.

Your life is a Flashback...
A question, a photograph, a statement, a story,
a struggle, a chance to laugh.

Because if you don't laugh, you cry.

A last crescendo when you die.

So hit the rewind button and listen,

it's the playback, the soundtrack to your life

Okay, honestly...
I have no idea what you just said,

but you looked so cute saying it.
My life has gone in 3 directions:
up side down.

I got hay fever.
Well, I am not sure as well actually because I never get it since I've been here for 4 years.
But, few days ago, started from Saturday actually, I got itchy throat so sudden.... the worst one.
And it became worst on Sunday. I got itchy throat, blocked nose and my eyes feel so tired.
My housemate, Maria told me to get hay fever medicine because they got it as well.
I knew that they got flu but I don't know if it is hay fever.
I didn't really care before about hay fever as I never experience it.

But, I bought the medicine too... at last because Maria said that our body can't produce the immunity to hay fever by itself so we have to take medicine. So, basically hay fever is an allergic to pollen and it is usually spreading on Spring.
The stupidest thing is that remember I got flower from my graduation ceremony? I did keep that flower in my house without considering the effect of it. hahahaha....

No one is aware of that until Maria and his boyfriend, Erick got flu for 1 week and it didn't get better at all.
That's how we get hay fever. Luckily, everyone is getting better now after taking the medicine.
The only problem is my voice is really bad, I think... while my friends said it's funny and cute --"
The worst part is people said, once you get hay fever, you have to take the medicine every year even if you are not actually sick. Hhhhhh!


pic is taken from here

I know....
I think about it too
I know the situation
I know what happened
I know the consequences
I know what to do

But, somehow... it just hurts
I don't know why
And I just want to cry
I know it's not worthed
Just for today
Please...
Let me cry...

Do you want to see what my friends did in my birthday?
I AM SHOCKED!
I didn't even see my face before, I just saw my picture this morning because they uploaded to Facebook.
Geeezzzz....!!

And I just realized that my birthday, every year, my face is not right. hahaha...
My face is always scary or ugly or what ever but clean.
Thank you for that, friends... ;p

Ah.. I can't help to not to post these graduation photos. Love love love it so much... hehehehe....
I am pretty sure that it was one of the best day in my life, gave me so much memories that I will always remember for the rest of my life.

Surrounded by lovely families and friends.
Occurred at the time I do not need to concern about other things.
Felt so free and happy (:

I think I just ruined everything
I don't know what I did
In fact, I don't know why I did that
Stupid me!
Now, only regret left
I guess, everything won't be the same now.

I had my graduation ceremony. Finally... I have been waiting for this. hehehehe....
It was fun and tiring because I was working in the next day and the ceremony just started at 8pm - 10pm. You can guess that after the ceremony, me, my family and one of my friends went for dinner. hahaha.... So late!

My parents were here for 6days therefore I don't have any time to blog. I went to some places on weekend and still work on weekdays. Besides, now I don't really have time to blog in work place. Now, I know my colleagues' feeling. Why are they so stressed and depressed. But, so far... it's fine. I still can handle it, in fact sometimes we receive really interesting and funny call from some clients :)

Not much update though.... Just see the pics below ;p

Melbourne's weather was so nice last weekend. Of course me and my friends didn't waste it away. We basically just hang around city enjoying the sun. Ate a lot, took many pictures, smiled a lot and prayed a lot.

Well, here are some pictures of us :)

For the second time....
I say again...
that...
Falling for your best friend is really really not a good idea.
At least for me.
I am done with it,
I am done with you,
I won't waste my time, my mind and my heart anymore....

If there's one thing I learned in prison it's that money is not the prime commodity in our lives... time is. - Gordon Gekko.

You stop telling lie about me, I'll stop telling truth about you. - Gordon Gekko.

What's worth doing is worth doing for money. - Gordon Gekko.

Greed is good. Greed is right. Greed works, greed clarifies, cuts through and captures the essence of evolutionary spirit. - Gordon Gekko.

I feel blue.
I feel sad.
I feel empty.
I feel that something bad will happen.

My mood is upside down.
My heart is sick.
I can't even understand myself.
What should I do?

I am hurt.

Another video from Sam Tsui. Enjoy!

Ingredients:
500 gr self-raising flour
750 cc water
1 egg
50 gr sugar
1 table spoon salt
1 tea spoon baking soda

Topping:
chocolate meises
granulated peanut
cheese
sugar
condensed milk
etc (can be modified)

Process:
1. Mix all the ingredients except baking soda.
2. Stir it by using the whisk, until the dough is mixed and flour is dissolved. Leave it for 1 hour or more.
3. Heat the pan.
4. Put the baking soda to the dough, stir it until it is mixed.
5. Pour the dough to the pan (not all, it depends on how big is your pan and how much is the dough). With this recipe, it can be up to 3 times using 24cm diameter pan.
6. Cook until the top of the dough dry and porous.
7. Strew the sugar, cover the pan.
8. When it's cooked, lift it and smear it with the margarine, fill with the topping.

Ingredients:

525 gr flour (Segitiga Biru / self-raising flour)
345 gr margarine
165 gr water
3 gr salt
6 pcs eggs
450 gr caster sugar
10 gr baking powder

Topping:
150 gr chocolate chip

Process:
1. Sifter the flour, put it into mixer bowl.
2. Heat the margarine, water and salt until it is boiled, and mix it with the flour. Stir with medium speed until the dough is warm.
3. Put the eggs in one by one to the dough, stir until it is mixed.
4. Mix the sugar and baking powder, then put it into the dough. Stir until it is mixed.
5. Put the chocolate chip into the dough by using whisk.
6. Pour the dough into the muffin place and bake in 200 degrees Celsius for 25 minutes.